march hols.

argh! my hair's so thick no wonder sometimes i cant think properly cuz my brain's getting fried!
cannot tahan sey. so that one hot bloody day, i went to cut it. for 10 bucks. "ok girl, u look at the book and choose the style u want." bloody hell. everyone in that catalouge had either freakin rebonded or perfectly permed hair. mine is far away, far far far away from either. it's like, half-curled, burnt hay. or more like yak hair. maybe its just the weather that's making it look dry and horrible. or maybe its just me. anyways, i got it cut so dont make me regret. cuz i hate to go through the process of regretting that i cut my hair. after that, the lady was like "look girl, ur hair. so curly curly." then she sort of sweeps the pile of hair on the floor with her feet towards me. ahh?
feels like i lost 5kg.
ahh yes. the march hols. had a malay society bbq on friday. food was ok. "rozni" wasn't there. how the hell should i know he takes tamil and tamil- speaking muslims weren't invited? sad. but its ok. :) we watched the exorcism of emily rose in LT3 until 11pm. it was freakin scary mary like shit. i covered my ears during most of the scary scenes. that's why i'll never watch a horror movie in the cinema. anyway, it was a really fun bonding activity. i love mcs, bebeh!! watched gubra with yani which was damn nice i cant wait for the vcd so i can watch over and over and over AND OVER again. like what i did with sepet. and jason's brother is hot! but his tetek berbulu. haha. lurve it!! went to the halal food fair at expo with my mum and syahir. i fell in love with dendeng. especially the chilli chicken. mmmm..met liyana. oooh i miss her so many many!! watched dorm with mummy and syahir too which was the worst horror film EVER. disappointing. oh, i dint pay for the tickets so, that doesn't count. from the mouth of world's no.1 pengecut- the movie was NOT scary --- at all. im serious.
i watched crash on dvd too. it was GREAT. makes me feel damn lucky im living in singapore. oh, i was watching it alone then my mum appeared to ask me what i was watching and just as she appeared, the sex scene appeared as well. wow.
so i had like some sort of a movie marathon but for most of the holidays, i was studying. oh and i fell sick twice for studying in my room. nah, i wasn't sick of studying, my room is bloody dusty, when i stay in there for a few seconds, i'll get terrible running nose. i hate it. so i have to migrate to the dining table and whenever someone switches on the tv, that person'll regret for switching it on.
i was so sick and was so on about studying i didnt go rowing. neither did i go run. oh, it was the rainy period too. the news anchor was like "looks like its not going to rain in the next 2 weeks" and it rained the very next day! we have good news forecasters.
and exams came and went. i couldnt finish geog paper on time cuz i had too much too write. i had too little to write for econs and i finished the maths paper right on time. and today, i watched v for vendetta at marina square. the new look makes marina square looks gigantic! and i love that movie! but i got lost halfway. the language is so chimeney chim chim. anyways, i like it very much. i wanna watch it again!
ahh yes. as u can already see from my march expenditure, im BROKE. sad.
and i love jason mraz. sam went for his concert while i was busy mugging. ergh.
oh. visit my bro's diary. he's selling tees. i think they're beautiful. click on enemiko and check them out kays?
im craving for dendengs.
and to my besties, nadelly and heen, lets quickly plan for a girl's day out!! cant wait bebehs!! i suggest...window shopping at marina square! dont mind anything lah guys! :)

and to liyana, i wanna go out with u too! i "chop" u for next week! :)

love u guys many many!!

family

love. family.
beautiful. i like.
yay.
anyway, changed my blog.
aisyah's bored.
go study, u lazy ass!
and put that tub of nutella away!!

career fair

bummer.

im getting lazier by the day.

the exams are drawing nearer each freakin day.

oh, gp's tmr.

bummer.

i've never used that word before: bummer.

lala.

anyway, i wasn't feeling well these days. havent's been eating well, either. im on a diet, mind you. i hate starving myself. but its for my own good. i guess. i really wanna row in the lightweight category. last weekend, i had 4 consecutive days of training. i lost about 3.5kg. when i stepped on the weighing scale, the feeling that swept through me was exhilarating. 3 to 4 more kg down and im there, babeh. im finally there. but not yet. almost. almost.

anyway, that was last weekend. after like 2 hours of rowing and 6.2km of jogging under the afternoon sun. so after 4 days of rest, cuz aisyah's such a lazy pig she doesnt feel like rowing giving stupid excuses like exams are here, i think last week's weight losing effort will be wasted. ergh. this is tough.

anyway, havent been blogging a lot lately. oh yes, i was not feeling well. i have the oddest infection i can ever imagine: lymph node infection. i heard that somewhere. ahh yes! biology. those mrs wong days. sigh. yea, there's this small lump near my left year, where the sideburn's supposed to be. ahhh! i donno what's that part called. but there's a lump there anyway. and another at the back of my ear. it hurts when i press them. i thot they're signs of mumps. and mumps are contaigous, i heard. so on monday, i skipped the last 2 periods of swim pe to visit the doctor. she was the one who told me i had lymph node infection. i was like nymph lode whatttt? her reply was, "its an organ in your body that is swelling." helpful, indeed. got some antibiotics to reduce the swelling and thankfully, the lump is smaller now. yay!

anyway, last weekend was quite exciting. on sat, i had training in the morning. after that i met amaria at city hall cuz we planned to visit the career fair together. i found the fair very helpful cuz im such a bummer. im 17 (going 18 soon!!) and i dont know what i wanna be and i donno where i wanna go. and amaria rocks la. im like utterly clueless about uni edu and all and she was way more useful than the fair!! haha. thanks, girl. =) anyway, yea. i was quite interested in the novation business school's advanced dip in sports management. but my brother said it wasnt recognized and all. but i wanna go nus, but...i dont know what course to take. told u im such a bummer. sigh.

oh btw, i had an offer from my rowing president to study in west virginia university. they're gonna pay for everything if i were to accept the offer but i have to row while im there. sounds like a good offer but firstly, i wasnt planning to go to west virginia. i wasnt even planning to go overseas! and secondly, my mum said no almost immediately when i told her about it. so, yea. sad. actually, i dont know. sigh. what do u think?

after that, we went to school to watch night of laughter. it was great. some of the sketches were not funny but some were really funny. yea, enjoyed myself. yay.

anyway, i better get going. the bells gonna ring any time soon. tomorrow's gp exam. i hope i can pass, at least. sigh. wish me luck :)

i wanna watch fd3, gubra, date movie, blah blah...im so movie-deprived!!! the last movie i watched was saw 2!! omg. aisyah's so sad.

lala.

mwahh to everyone!!!

aisyah =)

f-o-r

its been aisyah's bloody sleepy days these days. aisyah's been sleeping in lectures and during her free periods. and even during assembly!! for example, like today. sat down on one of the empty chairs next to ruth, with the earpiece still plugged into my ears, with my sling bag still slung over my shoulders, i just sat for like one second and the next thing i knew everyone was standing up to prepare for assembly. oh, and the worst thing to do is to sleep in the mrt- alone. yes. i did it. i shouldnt have sat in the first place but i even fell asleep standing! wth.

and the most irritating thing is that i sleep at 10.30 every night!!

i guess it must be the post-fun-o-rama-shaggedyness. funorama was freakin tiring- but freakin fun too. ok, i dressed up as willy wonka (or supposedly willy's wonkis) on that freaking hot day. i had to wear this starry vest with this thick, heavy maroon coat and a big top hat that made me look like i was 190cm tall and white gigantic retro sunglasses. i'll think about whether to put the pictures of me in that costume up here. haah. anyways, the top hat was bloody heavy, mind you. i had to walk around under the freaking hot sun with an almost broken cane in one hand and krispy kremes doughnut in another. ahhh yes. krispy kremes. if u havent tried krispy kremes doughnut before, i think u must at least try it before u die. i am serious. the doughnuts were flown from sydney that very morning! and it was sold out even before noon!!! oh, and krispy kremes are h-e-a-v-e-n-l-y, i tell you. they're like ahh...mmm...ooo...ohyea....uhh....like that. yea. like that. like having an orgasm. like it could turn u on. like it makes u horny and get excited...like u know what i mean. yea. like that.

it rained in the late afternoon. so our food stall which was at the hub went hectic when loads of customers bought our chocolate fondue and ice milo. it was bloody tiring. i had to refill the milo dispenser like 5 times during my shift. but it was really fun. yea, i had fun. im glad i did. yay. =)

oh, i like the burger ramly best. yummy.

then the class went for a so-called class dinne at 3 different restaurants. i went home. cuz im having training the next day.

and sunday's training was the most tiring session ever. we had competition resistance which was like rowing at race speed but not the full race length but equally tiring. and right after rowing, i had to run 6km. at 11.30am. my life rocks, dont u think?

ahh yes. then i went for rowing again on monday. cuz school was half day. ate at pepper lunch with my class at taka, which was not halal. haha. im so evil these days, u know. do u think i'll be sent to hell cuz i ate pepper lunch? even tho its like the best meal ive eaten for days? even tho it costs me $10 for a plate of pepper rice and raw beef? will i? will i? will i go to hell for this sin i did? but pepper lunch was damn delicious..ahh...but i feel guilty after eating. haha.

dont tell my mum ok?

uhh...then i went training again on wednesday. is it trainings that has been making me tired? or is it my attempt to lose weight that i start starving myself in school but later i eat like i havent eaten for the whole day (which is exactly true) at home? im so not helping myself. im so lousy at this. i need to lose weight. ergh.

my life rocks i tell ya. i told u that before right? yes i did. its true. its true.

yup. gotta go now. told myself to spend one period on computer and another studying but im only left with half a period doing the latter. *whacks myself with my rowing oars*

Nah has a new v3i and he said that my phone is lousy and i cant flip my 6610i and he also added that he's not a show off. ironic.

oh well, for the rest of the day, i just hope to stay awake in classes.

wish me all the best owkay?

tatas. :)

rowing

found this article on this website: http://www.rc-plaue.de/body_allgemeiner_wassersport.htm
ohh cool!! im featured in this german website!!! i miss germany!!! arghhhh!!!

dats me and shuying!!!

Rudernationalannschaft aus Singapur zu Gast beim RC Plaue
Im Rahmen der Junioren-WM in Brandenburg betreut unser Verein die Rudernationalmannschaft aus Singapur, das heißt der RC Plaue stellt unseren Gästen, die vom anderen Ende der Welt angereist sind Unterkunft und Trainingsmöglichkeiten zur Verfügung. Das Ziel während des 3-wöchigen Aufenthalts soll die Vorbereitung und zugleich die Teilnahme an der Junioren-WM in der ersten Augustwoche sein. Die Ruderinnen und Ruderer aus Singapur gehen sowohl mit Saiyidah Aisyah und Ong Shu Ying im Juniorinnen-Zweier-ohne als auch mit Dev Anand und Ivan Lee im Junior-Doppelzweier an den Start. Trainer Raihan Bin Omar begleitet seine Schützlinge während der Trainigseinheiten, die mehrmals täglich auf dem Plan stehen mit dem Motorboot. Unser Verein unterstützt die Ruderer aus Singapur so gut wie möglich um eine möglichst erfolgreiche Teilnahme an der JWM zu erreichen. -CP-

Am 27.7.05 besuchten die Nachwuchssportler der KITA "Plauer Spatzen" den Ruderclub Plaue. Die Kinder, welche von Anke Drese an den Rudersport herangeführt werden, waren sehr aufgeregt als Sie mit der Nationalmannschaft der Ruderer aus Singapur zusammen trafen. Erst sehr schüchtern dann aber doch hoch erfreut konnte man die Sportler auch hautnah erleben. So etwas passiert ja nicht alle Tage, dass eine Nationalmannschaft im Heimatort beherbergt wird.Am Sonnabend sind die Sportler aus Singapur gemeinsam mit den Ruderern des Vereins dann auf der kleinen Regatta zum Fischerjakobi zu sehen bevor Sie auf der Wettkampfstrecke in Brandenburg bei den Juniorenweltmeisterschaften um größere Erfolge rudern.

haha. yay!!!

tell me, am i the earliest jc student to go to bed every night? is 10pm early? cuz if i sleep later than 10pm then if there's school the next day, then i'll spend my lectures and tutorials in lala land, maybe eating chocolate with my other classmates who decided to visit lala land too, and we're sitting next to the chocolate river dipping our hands into the chocolate fountain. oooh. makes me wanna go sleep during one of the lectures later. but aisyah hardly sleeps in lectures and tutorials these days. *pats on my back*
anyway, talking about chocs, we're doing a chocolate theme for fun o rama, which is like next sat. too freakin early, goddammit!! ahhhh!! oh, yes. the point is, u must buy our chocolate stuff. brownies, fondue, marshmallows, blah...choc here choc there. on my hands, on my tongue, down my throat, in my tummy. into my fat glands. then they store and make me fat. and it takes at least 30mins of jogging to lose that bite of chocolate i took. ahhh...where was i? got carried away...ahh yes. buy chocs from 2ahr at fun o rama. bloody high quality chocs which cost a bomb for us but we sell it to u at low low prices. dont doubt me. im a choc-fanatic.
i was supposed to sell fun o rama tickets at sp yesterday but ended up selling none and eating their shepherds pie from foodcourt 6 instead. hahh. im such a lazy bum. anyway, ive only got 5 more to sell. wont be tough, will it? sigh.
oh and we had cross country yesterday. yesterday was the hottest day of the week, i swear. the worst thing to do at macritchie was to wait. wait for people to arrive, wait for the guys to start their race, wait for our turn to start, wait for the finishing line to approach nearer. sigh. oh, there were no monkeys, so i dint step on one like what i almost did last year. almost, mind u. if i ever stepped on a monkey i wouldn't bother running in macritchie ever again. anyway, yes. it was scorching hot and humid and stuffy and the path was rocky and rooty and treacherous. the uphills were bloody killers. the expressway dint seem to end. i ran and ran and ran and i had that funny thought that i was like 30 something in position.

but i ended up 19th.

can u believe it? nineteen out of about three hundred girls. it was a great achievement. well, my first great achievement of the year. and of course, my first ever acjc medal. yay! and i treated myself to beard papa's cream puff after that. =) yummy. i wish i wish i can get a lifetime suply of beard papa's cream puffs, eclairs and cheese cake. sigh. oh. yes, i was the 19th girl yesterday. yay.
im so happy, and when my mum came home at night, she bought chocolate hl milk. i like. haha. my other achievement for the year is to do well for my terms. insyaallah.
my legs look like big, fat, chunky chocolate bars.
aisyah =)

cny2

sigh. i forgot to bring my handphone to school today. great way to start my day. yay.
oh. the chinese new year holidays were pretty exciting. ac perbayu performed a dikir barat on friday. which turned out pretty cool. and people loved it. ahh. this is us:

i lurve this pict. dont we look good? im the only one wearing white. and i know i look like a guy!! scary mary. i brought 5 baju kurungs and i dint get to wear any of them. haha.
anyways, it was really fun. even tho we had to go tru shit and hell sometimes. never smile kena scold. never gallop also wrong. haah. ahh yes. im smack right in the middle of the first row. dengdeng. everyone was so semangat. i love them!!

look at the concentration on our faces laa. :)
haha. anyway, i wore contacts on that day which made my eyes went all red and watery. on my way to orchard to meet alyani, i swear i couldn't open my eyes! bloody hell. i look like a drugged minah who just got punched by her abusive boyfriend or something. haha. well, in short, i look terrible! yup. met yani. then, we walk walk around taka cuz i wanted to go kino to search for something for my mummy's birthday which was on 6th jan. i know. im such a lousy daughter. then, yani fell in love with this rare species some sort of my type : long-legged animals laa. haha. this is the long-legged sheep and yani:

after that, we met astri and had lunch at sakura, far east. astri is still loud and minah-ish. haha. i miss her. oh and we met hafidz ("bitch") and daniel and they joined us for lunch. quite random laa. haha. and this photo was taken by hafidz:

its our reflection in the mirror. lol. astri had to leave early tho. ergh. but anyway, me and alyani went to eat the most sinful thing ever created on the face of this earth:

fried mars bar. omg. u must try it. its bloody heavenly. heaven for the tongue but hell for my tummy. haha. its mars bars, fried in flour i think or something lahh which are the brown balls u see. served with creamy vanilla ice cream. its not like any other budget cremo-ish ice cream, i tell u. and a generous supply of chocolate topping. it was that good that yani had an orgasm. haha.
alright. i met my mum after that. yani looked so shagged la. must be the fried mars bar. den guess where my mum brought me for dinner? desa kartika. i know. i swear i gained 3kg that night. damn. there goes my "lose 5kg by end of jan" goal. ergh.
oh and on sat, my daddy had bbq. it was just too hard to not eat. there was melted cheese on sausages, halal bahkwah...damn. i think im growing fat. and dying. seriously.
oh no. no. no. NO. it doesnt end there. i dint go for rowing trainings neither did i run during the cny holidays. and on tuesday, my family and i went to malacca to eat. yes. we paid like $40 each to eat seafood all the way at malacca. and the best thing in the world is, i DONT eat seafood. so i went all the way there to eat rice and 3 pieces of fried chicken wings. o-m-g. i dint buy anything else either.
sigh. and cross country's next week. and this week i only went rowing once. aisyah needs a kick on her big, fat, lazy ass. who would do the honour?
today we had to write anything that comes to our mind about control. and i spend like half of the given time staring at that word and thinking how weird it looks like. have u tried that before? like u stare at a word and it will just look weird somehow. or maybe its just one of the one hundred and one stupid things aisyah does. maybe.
hah. i gotta go now.

"hey ppl get your gear,

chicken year is now over,

come the dog year no more bird flu,

happy chinese new year to you!"

long-legged creature,

me :)

ketam and jagung

Your Hidden Talent

You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system. And while this may not seem big, it can be. It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes. You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

You Are 20% Abnormal

You are at low risk for being a psychopath. It is unlikely that you have no soul. You are at low risk for having a borderline personality. It is unlikely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

weehoo! im normal! yay!! and i have the natural talent of rocking the boat! ooh. maybe i was fated to row. haha. anyways. its thursday. and im having 2 free periods, wasting time taking all these random blogthings. how bored is aisyah? 99.128974% bored. the remaining 0.00 something percent is how not bored i feel. which means im really bored. but not so bored. cuz its not 100% bored. i still have some hope of unboredness left. yay!

omg. ketam ketttammm!!! oh. banyak banyak ketam!!!!

ahh yes. did u know i quit netball. like f-i-n-a-l-l-y. hah. yes. after 8 consecutive years of netballing, aisyah has finally quit netball. sigh. kinda sad la..to think about it. but i have to make a choice, anyway. netball or rowing. if i choose both, i might as well forget about a levels. sports in singapore can never be more important than education. discuss. wahh. so gp-deepy seyy.. haaahs. and my hidden talent is rocking the boat anyway, right? ahhhah.. i must nurture my talents while i still can and yes! aisyah can do it! *pats on my shoulder*

lalas.. lalalalas...

today i wanna go rowing. last week, we had a 2km time trial on water and it was my first ever time trial in my life on a single boat. the previous race was during the merlion at seletar last year. but i dint complete it cuz i capsized a few bloody seconds right after the race began. hah. i know. how pathetic was that? 87.1476472% pathetic!! then i cried (oh surprise, surprise) , cuz its quite embarrassing to capsize in a race and i felt really shitty mitty. but then,

failure is just a stepping stone to success.

if i fall, i've got 2 choices. to stay down or get up.

hah. so cheesy weezy!! ketam ketam nyer!!! blahh. ok. shut up, aisyah. sigh. yep. where was i? ahh yes. so for my first ever 2km time trial, i managed to clock a time of 9:41 mins which was way below my target for the year which is 8 mins flat. haha. but it was an achievement for me cuz i dint capsized and my target for that day was below 10mins. yeyyey. met my target!! *applause for aisyah* but there's still a lot to improve laa. rock my boat, aisyah. rock my boat.

im supposed to lose weight but ive been eating like crazy these days!!! old chang kee's irressistable epok epok everyday? im disappointed in myself. i cant stand it. if it wasnt for rowing, i would never go on a diet. but i wanna rock the boat, so i must lose weight. ergh. the rock my boat thing is getting in my nerves!! i think i need to take the abnormal test again. i find myself quite abnormal...sigh.

oh and its nice to talk normally now after whatever shit and hell that broke lose had happened. but things wont be the same again, i presume. but we'll try to make things better. if he cant, i will. oh, aisyah's gonna make the world a better place. spread the love, people. spread aisyah-ism. haah. sigh. the world is just like my skin colour- its not fair. ahhh!!! ketam jagung!!! ketam!! jagung!!

anyways, i hafta go for my next lesson now.

toodledoos. =)

success

ok. im in the school library again. alone, as usual. these days, i love to be alone. dont know why.

anyway, ive not been going rowing recently cuz im just plain lazy. like i told coach im going on tuesday but i didnt cuz i went to fetch my mum from the airport. yes. she just came back from haji and she bought quite a lot of stuff like dates, chocolate-coated dates, blahh.. alot la. its like food is all i think about. haha. and on wednesday, i was prepared to go training when it suddenly rained near my school. so i expected it to rain at pandan. i wanted to be sure it was raining at pandan so i took 78 to pandan from clementi. yep, it was drizzling slightly at pandan. so i dint alight and the bus took me all the way to jurong east. where i took the train home. gosh. aisyah is so retarded. its not a good feeling to skip training cuz the one who is at loss is me. i hate that guilty feeling. so on tuesday, i went running at woodlands stadium. i wanted to run yesterday but it began to rain heavily. spoiler.

well, yesterday was the first time since i broke up with kumar that i did not sms or call him. i thought well maybe he's moving on and so should i. i seriously refrained myself from touching my phone the whole day. i actually survived it! even tho i miss him like crazy laa. sigh. i miss crapping with him, telling him stupid jokes and receiving mean comments on how lame i could get, i miss being pinched..blahh...i wont get it started. anyway, i managed to complete a few maths homework and im proud of myself! these few days, ive NOT been sleeping in lectures or tutorials. yay for aisyah =)

so today, i promised myself i would go for training, rain or shine. before coach slits my neck. haah. and i need to lose 5kg by next week. ergh.

aisyah =)

monday.

sigh. today is a shitty mitty day to conlude to a really shitty mitty weekend i had. sigh.
stop sighing aisyah or u'll be called, sigh-idah aisyah. wth.
*slaps myself*
uhh. yes. its monday morning and im in the school library cuz i have 2 free periods. since i dropped lit, i have a lot of free periods. yayness. but today was bad. i have panda eyes this morning cuz i cried myself to sleep last night. someone made me cry real bad. yea. i look like a gigantic panda. =(
then i went to school with uber conspicuous eyebags that could store one big fat piece of kueh tat in them. hah. stupid analogy. dint know why im thinking about kueh tats. anyway, to top off my monday blues, i was caught for short skirt by the disciplne headmistress and she wanted me to buy a new skirt and show it to her during recess. but i couldn't find her and i dint buy any skirt. u're so gonna die, aisyah. ergh. now i look like a gigantic and retarded panda with a super long skirt. im so not gonna touch sugar cane today. it'll make me feel like a real panda. wait, pandas eat sugar canes dont they?
during the weekends, i went for rowing trainings in the mornings. on saturday we had an ergo timetrial which i did so damn bloody badly cuz the last time i touched an ergo machine was way before the sea games! i deproved by 26secs which is like utterly horrible and totally unacceptable for a national athlete! plus, i had a heavy breakfast and i actually throwed up right after the trial. i know, yucky mucky me!! but i felt really terrible and sick. eugh. imagine the pain i went tru. my coach dint give a damn about my vomit or how shitty mitty yucky mucky i felt. he was just diassapointed cuz i deproved by a lot. thanks, man. he's de best. oh and misery doesnt end there. immediately right after the trial we had to row for like 8km. as usual i was last to take off from the pontoon and last to come back. last to wash my boat and last to do my recovery stretchings. sigh. i feel so...ergh. nevermind.
and i went home feeling bloody exhausted. seriously, i was feeling like lousy mousy like that and all i could do was sleep. and i wanted to sleep for 15 minutes but no, i slept for like a few hours. then i forced myself to wake up to do some homework. which i succcessfully did. yay for aisyah. =)
on sunday, there was morning training again. we're supposed to complete a 14km programme. i was last (as usual) and coach followed me on his motor boat. he told me to like lift up my wrist at the catch position but the water was bad and there were crosswinds and my boat was unstable. he got so dissapointed at me he started shouting! i wanted to tell him its not easy to balance and lift up my wrist and i just learned to row a singles boat and it takes time for me to learn and im not really a fast learner and im feeling tired but i wanna do it but u have to give me some time and patience but no, ure shouting at me and i feel hurt when u say mean things and i know my ex rowng partner is doing well cuz she has been rowing singles before she rowed with me and she has no school to think about and im having my a levels this year and u dont understand shit and all u care about is rowing but i have a life and i want a life! but i didnt say anything. i almost cried when the blister on my right palm like totally burst. but i tried not to think about it. i was so angry i dint want to cry. i just wanted to row the 14km and go home.
went home felt shagged but i forced myself not to sleep. managed to finish a few assignments. and thats it, i guess. louasy mousy weekend aye?
mummy will be back tomorrow. yay.
and kumar told me that i have to move on and im trying to move on and it takes time to move on and its not that easy cuz...i still love him. ergh im so stupid.
oh well, hope the rest of my monday will be fine. im looking forward to pe. and dikir after school.
love, panda-isyah.

sadness.

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child. (nahhh...not me.)
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

sigh. been feeling really miserable these days. i need a kick on my ass..and please stop playing goodbye my lover by james blunt. its killing me. argh.

break up

i cant hold on, if he needs to walk away.

as hard as it is, i cant beg him to stay.

i cant hold him down, i'll try as i may.

but sometimes life isnt easy,

and things wont go my way.

so i'll hold me head up, be thankful and pray.

for the times that we spent, each and everyday.

and if its meant to be,

he'll comeback for me someday.

oooh. do u like the poster i created?? i like!! haha. aisyah's pathetic. sigh.

anyways, yes. its over between us. no more. uhh. yes. thats it. done. oh. yes. uhh.

and yes. im feeling sick and unwell. post breakup depression. and consequence of cleaning up my utterly dusty room. my eyes are itching. my nose is running. my throat is killing me. im...dying!!!! or prolly. soon. cuz im not even halfway tru my homework. not even a tenth!! not even a hundredth!!! not even...*slap*

ouch. yes. i need to go rest now. and im freaking hungry. ergh. dip strawberries in nutella and freeze them. yay.

and yes. congrats to elly hasfidah for winning the miss singapore poly title. im so proud of her. hott stuff aye? =)

sigh. shitty feeling again. good bye.

holidays

*droollly woollyyy* hah. thats wat me and yani shared when we went to eat lunch-cum-dinner at swensons together. wee. i had loads of fun. firstly cuz i havent seen her for ages. and secondly cuz she crap as much as i do. yay. haha. anyways, yup. the banana crumble was yummy yummy but became quite muak towards the last bits of it!

after eating, (and talking about fats and babats and all) we went to watch harry potter. uhh huh. on the opening day seyy. i just completed reading the book so ya. it was still nice tho. and we were oogling over cedric diggory. bloody hott. unfortunately he died in the end. whoops! just revealed the ending but i guess almost everyone must have watched harry potter and the goblet of fire by now, right?

yay. and thats me and yani. she likes this pict. i donno why. prolly the background looks macam stylo milo gitu. hah. but i like this one:

and this:

yay. and yea. last week i sleptover at her house which is like heee-uge. haha. we stayed up until like one thirty to watch vcds like 40 yr old virgin. hah. damn funny and a little obscene and when it came to the 'interesting' parts, the vcd spoilt. hah. pirated vcd...mine. =) and yani was already tired by then so we went to sleep. we continued the next morning with more movies! wee! oh. and we baked too and we ate a lot. whoa~ im gonna grow fat and die.

oh. u see, ive been trying real hard to wake up early these days to go for a run. but to no avail, man. i end up throwing my handphone on the floor, like the other day when it dropped and the screen couldnt work for like a few hours. violence. poor phone. well, i thot that maybe cuz it doesnt work i can get another fon like the motorola v3 (the pink one of cuz) ive been oogling over. but the damage was bloody temporary. shucks. haha.

and and yes...last weekend i participated in a girls street soccer competition at tampines. ooh yea. it was loads of fun. we won like 2 games out of *gasp* 6. haha. we realised how old we're getting cuz we were panting like hell during the 8 minutes matches. pathetic. actually its bcuz we have no substitutes. i have registered 8 ppl for my team but only 5 turned up so all of us had to play cuz its 5 a side. some ppl are simply disappointing. anyway, we were competing with teams with league players and all and some teams were like really really good. i was impressed. well, i guess the most important thing is not about winning but its about loving the sport and of cuz about participating. yay. BPians rock. yay. and now my legs are aching badly and i have bruises all over my shins and kneecaps. no yay.

hmmm. i havent touched my homework. i swear. im so gonna die when term starts.

oh and my mum's on her way to jeddah now for her haji. and she's stopping by dubai. ooh. i wanna go dubai! oh and why is everyone going to KL??? i wanna go there tooo... =(

anyways, i really have to start on my homework soon. like now. hah.

two weeks more. i dont wanna go back to school. help me, please?

sea games 2005

been there. done that.

yep. the sea games are over. which means. my training camp days are over. no more morning weight lifting sessions. no more after school training programmes. no more bunking out with my fellow rowers. no more of all that. honestly, from the bottom of my heart. i miss it all. yea. anyway, i've got loads to tell you about the sea games!!!

changi

the team singapore ppl sent us off. so did alyani, ms trina tay, debby, jolene, amaria, my mum, and my brothers. thank you thank you all so much for coming down early in the morning to see me off. and also to ama and arina and titey and faizul and fad and sak and nizal!!!! sorry i had to rush u guys. i dint know we had to enter the boarding gates at 8.45am. =( thanks a gazillion anyway. u guys rock. =)

manila

taking the sq flight is like WHOA. i watched a few good movies i cant remember what. oh, the march of the penguins was one of them. ooh. cute cuddly penguins. makes me wanna bring one home. hah. then i decided to play mario and pokemon on nintendo. yea. too bad its only a 3 hrs flight. they served me fish for lunch. damn. mine was muslim meal so i ended up eating rice only. touchdown was quick and fast. i mean really fast. we dint have to queue up to get our passports checked and all. they ushered us to a room, presented us with the sea games logo (that head with the funky headgear) which they made it into a necklace. and we waited for them to return with our checked passports. together with our bags. we felt...like vips u know. hah. more on prestigous service later. got onto the mini bus and on our way to the hotel.

great eastern hotel

it took us abt an hour to reach the hotel. it could have taken us half the time if it wasnt for the heavy traffic. i mean, really heavy. and the sad thing is, its considered normal in manila. damn. the bus hardly moved at all! pedestrians had to cover their noses and mouths with handkerchiefs cuz pollution in the city is Bad. policemen walked around with shotguns and rifles. the weather was hot. like when u carry an umbrella in singapore when its sunny, u would be called sissy. but in philippines, the sun is so scorching plus the poor air pollution, its okay to use an umbrella on sunny days. and we finally reached the hotel. supposedly the only first class hotel in manila. well, not bad la. but it would have been a three star hotel if it was in singapore. went up to our room. my roomies were shuying (my partner) and elsie (the silver medalist). our room was kinda big. but it had no windows. i am dead serious. no windows. rain or shine. night or dark. we dont know. haha.

la mesa dam

thats where we rowed. we had to pass at least 3 security checks before entering the dam. and we saw soldiers with huge guns again. its scary i tell you. and everytime we enter and leave the dam they check. so we enter the dam once in the morning leave in the afternoon. come back after lunch and leave in the evening. so they check at least 12 times everyday. and mind you, its only one team per bus. they have to check almost 6 buses per day! scary? tell me abt it. and everytime we leave the hotel, we have security guards with us. its kinda cool la. when we travel in the bus, there'll be at least 2 police motorbikes travelling together and when there's a mini jam, we get the privellege to go first. haha. cool aye?

HOTTT guys

what else, aisyah? what else? haha. yea. firstly, i met rowell. he's still tall and hot but with a girl in hand, it will minus 100 points off his hot factor. haha. yea, we talked. he's married for about a month and his wife is pregnant like 5 months. yea. and NO im not sad abt it. not at all.

made friends with the thai guys. they are damn blardy hot lah. they have weird terribly long names like rutthanapol, choetchet and phuttaranska. whataver la. haha. but i call them pat, pan, chey, chang, moe, boe, chet. haha. funny. anyway, yes. when they change into their unisuits, and if ure lucky, u get a sneakpeak at their abs and oh my oh my, they are just simply damn blardy hot lah ok? haha. but when i talk to them they cant understand english for nuts! haha. well, some of them can make it but some of them just cant. who cares? i went party with them. they drank like beer was free, they were really funny. they were cool people and yea, i miss them!

damn hot thai guys. *sigh*

mynamar guys look as if they lived in the 80s but they were super gentlemen. philippine guys dont wanna mix with the others cuz they think they're superior, except one of them who was a reserve. mark anthony. he rocks la. rowell's friend. indo guys like to talk to me but i can hardly understand what they're saying. haha. sorry la my bahasa isnt that good. but they're a nice bunch. i even talked to one until like 2am on the last day.

oh, how can i forget. singapore guys. of cuz they're hot. hot tempered. haha. nolah. my kumar is still the hottest guy around. and mimi (who won bronze) will always be hot in rowing. c'mon man. he beat the 4th indo by one sec to get third! but unfortunatley, lost to the 2nd vietnam guy by one second!!

the race

there were 6 boats in our race. 6 boats per race. we had a preliminary round which will determine the lanes we race for the finals. we came in 3rd. beating philippines, mynmar and m'sia but losing to vietnam and indo. it was a really good race. but we knew most of the teams were conserving energy for the finals which means they weren't going all out. and on the day of our finals, i was blardy nervous. i couldnt stop walking around trying to ease myself. seriously, ppl were so worried i would cock up the race if i continue to get like super nervous. which unfortunately, i did. the race was bad. and i dont wish to tell the rest.

shopping

shopping after the race made me feel lots better. the shopping centers in manila were HUGE. met karla once before the race and she brought me to SM North Edsa which is like twice suntec city. and karla told me its one of the smallest malls! the best thing is, the things are blardy cheap! haha. after the race, me and shuying brought the singapore team to SM. then we also went to one of the shopping villages in makati (or was it pasig) and market! market! which was one of the biggest shopping centers ive been too. its really really huge! but wait. there's SM megamall which i dint go to but i saw it!! i saw the BIGGEST Shopping center in manila! and yes, it was ENORMOUS!! like 5 times of suntec? wow. if u think singapore is a shopping paradise, u havent seen manila!!! haha. *so excited* i wanna go there again!!! hah.

home

yea. i came i saw and i conquered ( the shopping centers) haha. it was a wonderful trip despite not bringing home any medals. there's always a next time. yea, thats what they said to me when i finished the race. also, we're the youngest participants. and with the least experience. the indo women in our race have been rowing together for at least 6 years. hah. so, i was very disappointed but then, there's nothing i could do. when we reached changi last night, the winners were wearing their medals over their neck. i was sad, really. but i held my head up.

ive gotten this far. and yes, im proud of it. =)

uhhuh. its over. for now.

one week

yep. firstly, one more week to my departure to manila. yep down to a mere one week. from 7 months to one week. ergh. one blardy hellish week. hah. yea. get the point dontya?
secondly, trainings getting tougher by the day. but my partner's having her o levels so i will be training alone most of the time. going down on the single sculls. damn. i hate rowing alone. the guys will always leave me behind. ergh.
thirdly, last week the rowing team went to novena for the pledge-taking ceremony thingy, with the rest of the singapore contigent leaving for sea games to manila. quite a waste of time. hah. but we got to skip training. yea. saw quite a number of well-known athletes but other than that, we were sort of 'unknown'. i got interviewed by a warna dj. hah. my malay was super lousy. damn embarrassing. hah. nothing much happened. dinner wasnt so bad. free ice-cold milo, magee mashed potato, brownies, banana cakes, etc. after dinner, we had to take the bus back to camp cuz the taxi line was too long.
fourthly, this year, i broke my personal record of visiting the least number of houses for hari raya so far up till today, which is like 18 days or so? i only went to like 10 houses. damn.
fifthly, i havent done my homework. i dint know there was homework until my pw group members told me about it. haha. lousy me. and yea, pw's finally over. ergh.
sixthly, i hope it rains today cuz i dont wanna row on the singles. ahhhhh!!!
seventhly, wish me lotsa lotsa luck for sea games. i need all the luck i have. and yea, seven months down to a week. i say again. 7 months....one week. hah.
and finally, i'll introduce to you some hottt pinoy (philippine guys) when i get back on the 5th of dec. hah. just tell me your preferences and likes. haha.
till then,
MWAHHHHH!!!

one more month.

"zOOOOOooooooommmmm!!!"
whoa!

whats that?
that was october?
it went past that fast aye?
w.h.o.a.
*shrugs*

lame-o. hah. aisyah slowly getting back her lameness slowly. i havent cracked a lame joke since *gasp* exam started. well, not any that i could remember. unless every stupid thing i said is considered lame. hah. then, that'll be everyday. oh well, anyways. its 1st of nov and its deepavali and its kinda boring in camp. i mean, really boring. i have no tv and everyone else is sleeping soundly. and he's not around cuz he's at home celebrating deepavali, eating thosai and burfi and gulap jamun. damn. im dying for some gulap jamun. hmmm...
anyways, its like 2 more days to hari raya. and i cant wait. cuz i can collect money, cuz it'll prolly be the only day when i can go out visiting cuz i have to report back to camp the very next day. argh. shittiness. i hate it. hmmm, i only have 2 new baju this year. thats all. no shoes, no bags, no new hairdo. nothing much. doesnt seem like rayer tho. oh what to doooo....
one more month and thats it maaaan. i'll be out of this camp, i get to go out wherever i want, whenever i want, i dont have to sleep thinking of training the next morning, i dont have to wake up to train at 4.30am anymore, i dont have to limit my shopping time so that i can report back to camp for training. whoa~ i dont have to sleep with lizards and rats and mosquitoes and flying things of all sorts. but (there's always a but), i dont get to 'live' with him, dont get to spend as much time as i had with him, dont get to do whateva i want anymore. shit.

yea, one more month. training's getting more intense. we're suffering alot more to the extent that im actually feeling numb already. we go tru a cycle : train, eat, sleep, wake up, and train again. ahhh!!! am i losing my feelings? my emotions? hah. paranoid.

*slaps*

ooohyea, we got our 'goodie bag' yesterday. hah. the sea games bag laaa... sponsored by yonex. no surprise everything they provide us with was badminton-ish. hah. badminton shoes and socks and polo tees. i find them nice actually. hah. not nice also i cannot do anything maah...

oh and my promos were ok, actually. i passed (yippie!) thats what i aimed for and thats what i got. nothing more, nothing less. for the paper itself, i failed econs with 41 marks. hah. the lowest exam mark ive ever gotten in my LIFE. but combined with terms and what i predict is alot of moderation (cuz alot of ppl failed too), i got an E. and maths and geog are both D. not bad aye? considering that i missed school for a month and that i ponned school like noone's business. superrr aye? hah.

even tho its the most disgusting grades ive ever achieved for myself. baaah.

okeylaaa. i need to go orchard later, not to shop laa... meet up with my group members to do pw- the second worst thing i have to endure, other than training. hah.

till then, slamat hari rayerrr and happy deepavali to everyone ok?

mwahhh!!!

post exam. almost.

baaaaah. exams almost over. one more paper to go and thats IT. when i get my results, its either j2 or outta school. hah. im dead-serious. do i look like im joking to you? if i fail, i cant get promoted. thats the whole blardy point of PROMOtional exmas rite?
ooops. no blardy. oops. no vulgarities. fasting fasting. haha. naughty.
oh. im not fasting anyway. hah. do i have to announce that? yala. its a girls thing. which means i haf to pay back like three days. PLUS some leftovers of last year's. about 5 days. so next year, i owe like 13 days. hah. and im training twice a day. thrice on saturdays. baaah. damn tired la. oh shit. oh no. no shits, no damns. no vulgarities aisyah!!!!
hah. yea. must stay clean. must stay clean. c'mon, chant with me. must stay clean. haha. paranoid.
niways. im left with human geog paper next tues. so far, the other papers had been bad. not like bad-haha, but seriously BAD. im just hoping to pass and get into j2. thats all. and my fingers are kept crossed. hmmm, almost all the papers, oh, ALL the papers that i sat for actually were terrible. its either i dint know what to write or i dint had time to write. like the econs essay, i worte a 6lines paragraph for the 9 marks question. whoa~ good luck beb. u know. my friends, even YOU, would have at least a few good hours to study every day but for me, i finish school at 4.30, rush back to camp and train up to 8pm, dinner till 9pm and by 10pm, just as i open my book, i'll fall asleep. dang. and it happens every night. ahhh. damn. oops. ahhh. forget it. its overrrr la. now i can concentrate on training extra extra hard for sea games. ahh yes. i cant wait actually. but seriously, im so not prepared for it. at all.
hmmm, lost weight this week. donno why suddenly dropped like 3kg. maybe cuz im fasting (but im not, u see) haha. maybe cuz dinner isnt appetizing anymore. or breakfast starting to bore me. helllo??? i eat toasted bread and half-boiled egg and with cheese every morning. every single morning of my life in this camp. yes. im dead serious. i dont lie, not during this month. not in other months too. haha.
arrr...im starting to miss my friends. u know like the monstarz like the bachelor's gang like 402 like whoa~ everyone? almost. hah. and the other day i was walking to school with the other ex-BPians in acjc and we have came up with a theory: ppl who used to be popular in sec school arent really popular in jc and vice-versa, ceteris paribus. haha. donno for others but i agree. i agree! hah.
ohkay. i gotta mug for human geog now. after that, i plan to watch downloaded episodes of whos line is it anyway. i love L-O-V-E that show. always makes my laugh until i cry. haha.
oh u know what? i stepped on a small tiny disgusting PIECE of cicak (lizard) this morning. YUCK YUCK YUCK!!!!! it got flattened, no doubt but it was still struggling and swinging and moving and shaking and its tail was jumping and ahhhh....Y-U-C-K. i was utterly disgusted. i sprayed my Baygon directly onto it for like 10 secs. haha. but its still alive so i sprayed my insect-repellent. still to no avail. so i took the courage of kicking it away with the floor mat. haha. true courage, maaan. hah. pathetic.
so ummm, (stop laughing! i HATE cicaks!!!!) ya. if u know me and havent seen me for a while, u know i miss you. haha.
mwahh!!! i love everyone.
happy fasting. and stay clean.
cicak hater,
me =)

the end is near.

did u know?

the worst way to miss someone, is to sit right next to him knowing that u can never get him.

and thats exactly how im feeling.

sometimes, life is unfair, u know? like when u're born into this world as a Malay and u fall in love with this guy who isnt and just bcuz he isnt a Malay, u know u can never ever get him. like if ure born a cat, there's no way u can have sex with a dog right? ok. bad analogy. but u get my point dont u?

i feel shitty. shitty like the piece of shit at the edge of my anus that just wont budge. and shitty feelings top my most hated feeling list. i want this feeling to go away. like how bad i want the 'we-fight-everyday-for-stupid-reasons' virus to go away. i want to feel the same way like i did when i just came back from germany. knowing that i needed him. and he needed me. so much so that our handphone bills combined totalled up to $1000. while i was in germany and he was in amsterdam and we talked on the phone as if we were in singapore. thats how much we needed each other, i think. u think? stupid? i must say. feeling needed? totally.

but now, i dont feel it anymore. i dont feel needed. i dont feel the need. i dont feel anything. cuz he's not Malay. is that right? cuz he's Indian, cant speak Malay for goodness sake and dont believe in God. is it? does things go that way in life? is it my fault that i fell in love with an Indian and not a Malay? is it my fault that i was born a Malay? is it my freaking fault??? then why is this happening to me? oh, so drama-mama.

life is just unfair. good things must always come to an end. somehow. i know it.

ive never felt so miserable in my life before. its like even worse than failing all my term exams. cuz i expected to fail. cuz i dint study. cuz i was busy rowing like as if the day will never be complete without rowing. sometimes, i miss being my old self. i miss mugging alone in my room, locking the door, isolating myself, shouting at whoever dared to disturb me, i miss sitting for exams feeling prepared and i miss passing my exams. honestly, i miss being smart. now, i feel stupid. stupid cuz i failed my exams. stupid cuz i allowed rowing to engulf my life and it made me stupid! stupid cuz i fell in love with an indian? im sorry. i just wish the world is not separated into races and religions.

and while i row and row, i forgot about one of the most important things in life- my friends. its not that i choose to ignore them or try to find excuses not to meet up with them. if i have all the freakin' time in the world, i would spend all my time with them. but now that all my freakin' time has been consumed by rowing, i hardly have any time left to even say hi. my life sucks. like mosquitoes which had bitten 15 times on my right arm and another 10 on my left, 6 on my right leg and innumerable on my left (cuz i gave up counting). yea. like how NICE mosquitoes suck, my life goes on the same way too. blardy hell.

i better stop before my stress hormones rage up to every corner of my brain cell. then i'll start growing white hair, get even more stress and die of stress. i dont want to die of stress. neither do i wanna die fat. or stupid. i wanna die in peace.

ok. so whats my problem now. its 2 am. i should be sleeping cuz my head feels heavy and my eyes are tearing like hell. have u seen my eye bags? did u know that i had to sleep at 12 almost every night and wake up at 4.30 every morning. and no i dont get to take a nice hot shower and prepare for school. i wake up to lift weights for at least one hour then i'll take a cold shower, eat lousy breakfast and rush to school.

so whenever u think ur life sucks, whenever u wake up feeling like shit and dont wanna go to school, and before u complain about stress, think of me. and u'll feel fine. trust me.

till then, i will stay strong.

survival skills #01- never give up. not now. NEVER.

love rule #01- never fall in love with someone who isnt ur race or religion. NEVER. but when u're already in love, dont come to me. i cant help, cuz i cant even help myself. sad.

oh well.

i want my smart self back. please.

korea.germany.

[this is the way we row the boat.]

[and this is the way we smile.]

WHOA!

one month beb. 4 weeks. 28 days.
fooooooo-yoh.
i wanna babble to you ALL about it!!!
lemme start with korea - Asian Junior Rowing Champs 2005. Hwa Cheon, Korea.

ANYO-HASEYO.

i saw the 38th parallel! not actually the border. i just saw this huge rock at the side of the road that says, "38th PARALLEL". almost saw it. big thing man. big thing.
we stayed in this motel. i was afraid to sleep alone so i insisted on sleeping with my rowing partner. felt sorry for her. we shared the same queen size bed in a tiny room that could only fit the bed, a tv and 2 of us. the water supply is either FREEZING cold or BLARDY hot.
the food we eat everyday, 3 times a day for 7 days, is almost the same for every meal. egg, bread, milk, kimchi, rice, mayo, jam, watermelon, kimchi, kimchi and kimchi. and kimchi makes me go, EUGHHYUCK. yuck. yuck. yuck.
the water we row in is cool and the surrounding is beautiful. hardly any winds or waves.
the people are friendly. but the town is just too small for a big shopping fanatic like me. i was bored. dead bored. the town looks almost dead at night.
no cute guys. not at all. its either that or i dun haf the thing for small-eyed guys. no offence ahh. oh and the chinese rowers look like uncles!! its a junior rowing competition for goodness sake. i wonder how they would look like when they're actually older.

the kazakhastan guys were not bad-looking. other than that...

no bread. no bun.

no eye candy. no fun.

im aisyah. what do u expect?

oh btw, we dint win anything in korea. came in last for every race but our time improved from 8"09mins to 8"02mins. was a lil disappointed but we learnt a lot.

its singapore in an asian comp. what do u expect?

then there was the transit from korea to singapore and to amsterdam and then to berlin. i travelled to 4 countries within 24 hours. big thing man. big thing.

Brandenburg, Germany- World Juniors Champs 2005

the amsterdam airport was blardy long. and we only had like 15 mins to get from one end of the airport to another. and we were caught up in long long long blardy damn long queues. and we ran and ran and ran and our throats were freakin dry and hurting. and we reached the gates for our flight to berlin- 5 mins late. and the flight left us. blardy hell. we waited about an hour for the next flight.

from berlin, someone fetched us to brandenburg.

we reached a small town called plaue, where our boathouse was located. big blue beautiful house. facing a lake. the place simply rocks. u heard that right. R-O-C-K-S. whoa. everything about our stay in germany rocks big time man. big time.

esp the food. we had cooks hired for us! 4 of them. and the food they serve us are super-duper delicious. waffle. yoghurt. nutella. pancakes. meltedbutter. cheeseandmushroom. pasta. grilled chicken. chicken salami. quiches. cereal. fruit salad. alot la. alot! and everyday, mtv mtv and mtv. with weekly pimp my ride sessions.

the weather can be annoying at times. there was once when it rained like shit for a few minutes. we were blardy cold and almost freezing and then we were burning under the hot sun the next minute!! odd but cooool. on our last day, it rained ice droplets. not snow. neither hailstorms. just tiny ice droplets. cooooooool, aye?

the guys are hott hott hottt! esp the rowers. austria, spain, south africa, slovenia, italy, serbia and montenegro, alot la. really. alot! nice to see. haha. but i like the japan guy best. super cute! oh damn, his name slipped off mymind. nevermind.

the water isnt nice to us. there was all kinds of winds. tailwind, crosswind, headwind. its not easy to get a good timing there bcuz of the winds.

anyway, we beat one team to get into final B which is a big big thing, esp for singapore. esp for me. hard work paid off. even tho we were last for the semis and the finals, we finished them smiling. cuz our timings were good. our techniques were almost flawless. our coordination was there. thats all we want. that sense of achievement. we came. we rowed. and we left. haha.

oh and we had sponsors. and we had our own van that drove us around. we got sooooo many souvenirs from our sponsors and friends. we went to the city and to berlin for shopping. berlin rocks, btw. foo yoh. my shopping paradise. but i had not much money so it was kinda a waste.

i saw the berlin wall, left my hand and footprint on it.

we went to alot of places, did a lot of things, appeared in the papers 4 times! appeared on tv twice! whoa~

it was really fun. seriously fun.

damn, i miss germany. alot.

shit maaaaan.

ergh.

back to school.

sorry i dint mention about getting any homework done. cuz i dint get any done.

die.

anyway, happy national day. wee. ("-_-)

between rowing and death

heyy ya!!

im feeeeeellllliiiiinnnnn' damn good. cuz i just ate tim tam original chocolate biscuits dipped in hot milo. damn irresistable. like me. haha. mosquitoes cant resist me ahh. am i that sweet?? awwww. im bloody touched. haha. punny punny. get it? bloody? mosquitoes? yea.

*slap!!!*

aisyah deserves that.

anyways, i have currently infinite mosquito bites on my legs and arms. i need mopiko. seriously. so yea. im trapped here somewhere in pandan. around jalan buruh. next to the pandan reservoir. im in camp for goodness sake. when normal people go on holidays or can shop around orchard road like noone's business. im still here. always will be here. goddammnit. i just realised that i haf no life.

*gasp*

no im not in some leisure camp or one week camp. nono. not a one month camp. not two months either. three months? errr. no. its a freakin' 6 months camp. 6 months? yes. 6 months. as in 12345...6. ya. SIX MONTHS camp. im serious. do u think i have time to lie to u? u heard that right. 6 months. so, the camp started like 3 weeks ago. and i cant beilieve i survived 3 bloody hellish torturous damn exhausting weeks. or was it 4 weeks? see i lost track of time. and ive not been watching tv since then. but i do watch movies once in a while. im a little bit of pro-piracy. like as if u're NOT. like the other day i watched pirates of the carribean. oh wait. that was original DVD mind u. btw, that movie was like so yesterday. and meet the fockers too. oh shitty hell. im so OUTDATED. help me, guys.

ass-hoooooooooole!!!

so where was i my dear? ahh yes. the camp. its some sort of a so-called rowing training camp or whateva shit u call it la ok. but it involves rowing, getting tired and all the shit. haha. lets not be so pessimistic ok? lemme see. the training schedule is like 3 trainings everyday. i mean it. every single day, mind you. wake up at 5 every morning, sometimes we go for a 6km jog. but at most times we do gym sessions. like just now we did 180 squats non stop. come again? 180!! i told u i got no time to lie to you! and ya. 180 crunches, 180 bench press (is that what u call it???) and 180 weight lifting ah. i donno what weight lifting mehtod precisely and i don care, actually. hmmm...so u still complaining having to wake up early in the morning??? think about my mornings before u start to grumble.

recently, we ran out of cheese so we have to eat bread and tuna but dammit, i dont eat tuna! so plain bread dipped in hot milo fer me, except today la. cuz i bought tim tam biscuits. Mmmmm. tim tam biscuits. *with that homer simpson "MMMMmmmmm..."* bleargh. im gonna grow fat and die soon.

where was i again?? err..ok. so my next training is at 11am. that will be egro training. in the gym. not so bad, so i dont get any BLACKER (more on that later). and at 5pm like that we go down on water to row. like 55mins non stop or 45mins 2 sets. yepyep. if u think ur life feels like shit, think of me and i promise u, u'll feel thankful and great. trust me.

the BRIGHTER side of this is the travelling. im leaving for Korea this july and straight from there, we'll head over to Germany for some sort of World Rowing Championship. and not a single cent out from my pocket unless i have to buy stuffs for people back home. i'll have to think about that. haha. the bad thing is that im gonna miss school for one whole bloody month. oh its a good thing?? nah. i dont think so. im sooooooo gonna fail my exams. i have terms right after the june hols and im sooooo not prepared for it. nono, its not the usual i dint study lie. im sorry if i lied to u guys before that i dint study for exmas but right now im serious. serious. SERIOUS. i dont know if i haf time to study. im soooooo gonna die, my friends. love me now before i leave.

*slap!*

aisyah deserves another spanking.

so yea. training makes me strong. haha. have u seen my legs? my left calf is bigger than my right. its super conspicuous and damn ugly ah. haf u seen my skin? its almost BLACK. with red spots. mosquito kisses. i feel loved. haha. yea. got burnt last week when we had the merlion rowing champs at seletar reservoir. the filipinos guys dint come. which was such a waste. notti me. and i got news that the 190cm guy quit the rowing team. *sniff*

butthere was this damn cute thai guy. u know jolly well ive got good taste. haha. took a pict with him but who says im gonna show it to u? haha. got a bronze, a silver and capsized on my single event. damn MALU! lets not talk about that. yea.

so yep. last week was hot and happening. hot as in, hot weather. haha. u should really have a look at my state now. im so dark people mistook me as a thai. oh no, some even thot i was a black african. thanks a lot, guys. that was damn nice to hear.

so, i STILL owe alot of people stuffs. like a prezzie for shaheen, a hug for hazie. damn. im a lousy friend. sorry guys. i'll get back to ya as soon as i find a life out here.

till then,

aisyah *=)

miss u loads.

**MWAHH**