one more month.

"zOOOOOooooooommmmm!!!"
whoa!

whats that?
that was october?
it went past that fast aye?
w.h.o.a.
*shrugs*

lame-o. hah. aisyah slowly getting back her lameness slowly. i havent cracked a lame joke since *gasp* exam started. well, not any that i could remember. unless every stupid thing i said is considered lame. hah. then, that'll be everyday. oh well, anyways. its 1st of nov and its deepavali and its kinda boring in camp. i mean, really boring. i have no tv and everyone else is sleeping soundly. and he's not around cuz he's at home celebrating deepavali, eating thosai and burfi and gulap jamun. damn. im dying for some gulap jamun. hmmm...
anyways, its like 2 more days to hari raya. and i cant wait. cuz i can collect money, cuz it'll prolly be the only day when i can go out visiting cuz i have to report back to camp the very next day. argh. shittiness. i hate it. hmmm, i only have 2 new baju this year. thats all. no shoes, no bags, no new hairdo. nothing much. doesnt seem like rayer tho. oh what to doooo....
one more month and thats it maaaan. i'll be out of this camp, i get to go out wherever i want, whenever i want, i dont have to sleep thinking of training the next morning, i dont have to wake up to train at 4.30am anymore, i dont have to limit my shopping time so that i can report back to camp for training. whoa~ i dont have to sleep with lizards and rats and mosquitoes and flying things of all sorts. but (there's always a but), i dont get to 'live' with him, dont get to spend as much time as i had with him, dont get to do whateva i want anymore. shit.

yea, one more month. training's getting more intense. we're suffering alot more to the extent that im actually feeling numb already. we go tru a cycle : train, eat, sleep, wake up, and train again. ahhh!!! am i losing my feelings? my emotions? hah. paranoid.

*slaps*

ooohyea, we got our 'goodie bag' yesterday. hah. the sea games bag laaa... sponsored by yonex. no surprise everything they provide us with was badminton-ish. hah. badminton shoes and socks and polo tees. i find them nice actually. hah. not nice also i cannot do anything maah...

oh and my promos were ok, actually. i passed (yippie!) thats what i aimed for and thats what i got. nothing more, nothing less. for the paper itself, i failed econs with 41 marks. hah. the lowest exam mark ive ever gotten in my LIFE. but combined with terms and what i predict is alot of moderation (cuz alot of ppl failed too), i got an E. and maths and geog are both D. not bad aye? considering that i missed school for a month and that i ponned school like noone's business. superrr aye? hah.

even tho its the most disgusting grades ive ever achieved for myself. baaah.

okeylaaa. i need to go orchard later, not to shop laa... meet up with my group members to do pw- the second worst thing i have to endure, other than training. hah.

till then, slamat hari rayerrr and happy deepavali to everyone ok?

mwahhh!!!