break up

i cant hold on, if he needs to walk away.

as hard as it is, i cant beg him to stay.

i cant hold him down, i'll try as i may.

but sometimes life isnt easy,

and things wont go my way.

so i'll hold me head up, be thankful and pray.

for the times that we spent, each and everyday.

and if its meant to be,

he'll comeback for me someday.

oooh. do u like the poster i created?? i like!! haha. aisyah's pathetic. sigh.

anyways, yes. its over between us. no more. uhh. yes. thats it. done. oh. yes. uhh.

and yes. im feeling sick and unwell. post breakup depression. and consequence of cleaning up my utterly dusty room. my eyes are itching. my nose is running. my throat is killing me. im...dying!!!! or prolly. soon. cuz im not even halfway tru my homework. not even a tenth!! not even a hundredth!!! not even...*slap*

ouch. yes. i need to go rest now. and im freaking hungry. ergh. dip strawberries in nutella and freeze them. yay.

and yes. congrats to elly hasfidah for winning the miss singapore poly title. im so proud of her. hott stuff aye? =)

sigh. shitty feeling again. good bye.

holidays

*droollly woollyyy* hah. thats wat me and yani shared when we went to eat lunch-cum-dinner at swensons together. wee. i had loads of fun. firstly cuz i havent seen her for ages. and secondly cuz she crap as much as i do. yay. haha. anyways, yup. the banana crumble was yummy yummy but became quite muak towards the last bits of it!

after eating, (and talking about fats and babats and all) we went to watch harry potter. uhh huh. on the opening day seyy. i just completed reading the book so ya. it was still nice tho. and we were oogling over cedric diggory. bloody hott. unfortunately he died in the end. whoops! just revealed the ending but i guess almost everyone must have watched harry potter and the goblet of fire by now, right?

yay. and thats me and yani. she likes this pict. i donno why. prolly the background looks macam stylo milo gitu. hah. but i like this one:

and this:

yay. and yea. last week i sleptover at her house which is like heee-uge. haha. we stayed up until like one thirty to watch vcds like 40 yr old virgin. hah. damn funny and a little obscene and when it came to the 'interesting' parts, the vcd spoilt. hah. pirated vcd...mine. =) and yani was already tired by then so we went to sleep. we continued the next morning with more movies! wee! oh. and we baked too and we ate a lot. whoa~ im gonna grow fat and die.

oh. u see, ive been trying real hard to wake up early these days to go for a run. but to no avail, man. i end up throwing my handphone on the floor, like the other day when it dropped and the screen couldnt work for like a few hours. violence. poor phone. well, i thot that maybe cuz it doesnt work i can get another fon like the motorola v3 (the pink one of cuz) ive been oogling over. but the damage was bloody temporary. shucks. haha.

and and yes...last weekend i participated in a girls street soccer competition at tampines. ooh yea. it was loads of fun. we won like 2 games out of *gasp* 6. haha. we realised how old we're getting cuz we were panting like hell during the 8 minutes matches. pathetic. actually its bcuz we have no substitutes. i have registered 8 ppl for my team but only 5 turned up so all of us had to play cuz its 5 a side. some ppl are simply disappointing. anyway, we were competing with teams with league players and all and some teams were like really really good. i was impressed. well, i guess the most important thing is not about winning but its about loving the sport and of cuz about participating. yay. BPians rock. yay. and now my legs are aching badly and i have bruises all over my shins and kneecaps. no yay.

hmmm. i havent touched my homework. i swear. im so gonna die when term starts.

oh and my mum's on her way to jeddah now for her haji. and she's stopping by dubai. ooh. i wanna go dubai! oh and why is everyone going to KL??? i wanna go there tooo... =(

anyways, i really have to start on my homework soon. like now. hah.

two weeks more. i dont wanna go back to school. help me, please?

sea games 2005

been there. done that.

yep. the sea games are over. which means. my training camp days are over. no more morning weight lifting sessions. no more after school training programmes. no more bunking out with my fellow rowers. no more of all that. honestly, from the bottom of my heart. i miss it all. yea. anyway, i've got loads to tell you about the sea games!!!

changi

the team singapore ppl sent us off. so did alyani, ms trina tay, debby, jolene, amaria, my mum, and my brothers. thank you thank you all so much for coming down early in the morning to see me off. and also to ama and arina and titey and faizul and fad and sak and nizal!!!! sorry i had to rush u guys. i dint know we had to enter the boarding gates at 8.45am. =( thanks a gazillion anyway. u guys rock. =)

manila

taking the sq flight is like WHOA. i watched a few good movies i cant remember what. oh, the march of the penguins was one of them. ooh. cute cuddly penguins. makes me wanna bring one home. hah. then i decided to play mario and pokemon on nintendo. yea. too bad its only a 3 hrs flight. they served me fish for lunch. damn. mine was muslim meal so i ended up eating rice only. touchdown was quick and fast. i mean really fast. we dint have to queue up to get our passports checked and all. they ushered us to a room, presented us with the sea games logo (that head with the funky headgear) which they made it into a necklace. and we waited for them to return with our checked passports. together with our bags. we felt...like vips u know. hah. more on prestigous service later. got onto the mini bus and on our way to the hotel.

great eastern hotel

it took us abt an hour to reach the hotel. it could have taken us half the time if it wasnt for the heavy traffic. i mean, really heavy. and the sad thing is, its considered normal in manila. damn. the bus hardly moved at all! pedestrians had to cover their noses and mouths with handkerchiefs cuz pollution in the city is Bad. policemen walked around with shotguns and rifles. the weather was hot. like when u carry an umbrella in singapore when its sunny, u would be called sissy. but in philippines, the sun is so scorching plus the poor air pollution, its okay to use an umbrella on sunny days. and we finally reached the hotel. supposedly the only first class hotel in manila. well, not bad la. but it would have been a three star hotel if it was in singapore. went up to our room. my roomies were shuying (my partner) and elsie (the silver medalist). our room was kinda big. but it had no windows. i am dead serious. no windows. rain or shine. night or dark. we dont know. haha.

la mesa dam

thats where we rowed. we had to pass at least 3 security checks before entering the dam. and we saw soldiers with huge guns again. its scary i tell you. and everytime we enter and leave the dam they check. so we enter the dam once in the morning leave in the afternoon. come back after lunch and leave in the evening. so they check at least 12 times everyday. and mind you, its only one team per bus. they have to check almost 6 buses per day! scary? tell me abt it. and everytime we leave the hotel, we have security guards with us. its kinda cool la. when we travel in the bus, there'll be at least 2 police motorbikes travelling together and when there's a mini jam, we get the privellege to go first. haha. cool aye?

HOTTT guys

what else, aisyah? what else? haha. yea. firstly, i met rowell. he's still tall and hot but with a girl in hand, it will minus 100 points off his hot factor. haha. yea, we talked. he's married for about a month and his wife is pregnant like 5 months. yea. and NO im not sad abt it. not at all.

made friends with the thai guys. they are damn blardy hot lah. they have weird terribly long names like rutthanapol, choetchet and phuttaranska. whataver la. haha. but i call them pat, pan, chey, chang, moe, boe, chet. haha. funny. anyway, yes. when they change into their unisuits, and if ure lucky, u get a sneakpeak at their abs and oh my oh my, they are just simply damn blardy hot lah ok? haha. but when i talk to them they cant understand english for nuts! haha. well, some of them can make it but some of them just cant. who cares? i went party with them. they drank like beer was free, they were really funny. they were cool people and yea, i miss them!

damn hot thai guys. *sigh*

mynamar guys look as if they lived in the 80s but they were super gentlemen. philippine guys dont wanna mix with the others cuz they think they're superior, except one of them who was a reserve. mark anthony. he rocks la. rowell's friend. indo guys like to talk to me but i can hardly understand what they're saying. haha. sorry la my bahasa isnt that good. but they're a nice bunch. i even talked to one until like 2am on the last day.

oh, how can i forget. singapore guys. of cuz they're hot. hot tempered. haha. nolah. my kumar is still the hottest guy around. and mimi (who won bronze) will always be hot in rowing. c'mon man. he beat the 4th indo by one sec to get third! but unfortunatley, lost to the 2nd vietnam guy by one second!!

the race

there were 6 boats in our race. 6 boats per race. we had a preliminary round which will determine the lanes we race for the finals. we came in 3rd. beating philippines, mynmar and m'sia but losing to vietnam and indo. it was a really good race. but we knew most of the teams were conserving energy for the finals which means they weren't going all out. and on the day of our finals, i was blardy nervous. i couldnt stop walking around trying to ease myself. seriously, ppl were so worried i would cock up the race if i continue to get like super nervous. which unfortunately, i did. the race was bad. and i dont wish to tell the rest.

shopping

shopping after the race made me feel lots better. the shopping centers in manila were HUGE. met karla once before the race and she brought me to SM North Edsa which is like twice suntec city. and karla told me its one of the smallest malls! the best thing is, the things are blardy cheap! haha. after the race, me and shuying brought the singapore team to SM. then we also went to one of the shopping villages in makati (or was it pasig) and market! market! which was one of the biggest shopping centers ive been too. its really really huge! but wait. there's SM megamall which i dint go to but i saw it!! i saw the BIGGEST Shopping center in manila! and yes, it was ENORMOUS!! like 5 times of suntec? wow. if u think singapore is a shopping paradise, u havent seen manila!!! haha. *so excited* i wanna go there again!!! hah.

home

yea. i came i saw and i conquered ( the shopping centers) haha. it was a wonderful trip despite not bringing home any medals. there's always a next time. yea, thats what they said to me when i finished the race. also, we're the youngest participants. and with the least experience. the indo women in our race have been rowing together for at least 6 years. hah. so, i was very disappointed but then, there's nothing i could do. when we reached changi last night, the winners were wearing their medals over their neck. i was sad, really. but i held my head up.

ive gotten this far. and yes, im proud of it. =)

uhhuh. its over. for now.

one week

yep. firstly, one more week to my departure to manila. yep down to a mere one week. from 7 months to one week. ergh. one blardy hellish week. hah. yea. get the point dontya?
secondly, trainings getting tougher by the day. but my partner's having her o levels so i will be training alone most of the time. going down on the single sculls. damn. i hate rowing alone. the guys will always leave me behind. ergh.
thirdly, last week the rowing team went to novena for the pledge-taking ceremony thingy, with the rest of the singapore contigent leaving for sea games to manila. quite a waste of time. hah. but we got to skip training. yea. saw quite a number of well-known athletes but other than that, we were sort of 'unknown'. i got interviewed by a warna dj. hah. my malay was super lousy. damn embarrassing. hah. nothing much happened. dinner wasnt so bad. free ice-cold milo, magee mashed potato, brownies, banana cakes, etc. after dinner, we had to take the bus back to camp cuz the taxi line was too long.
fourthly, this year, i broke my personal record of visiting the least number of houses for hari raya so far up till today, which is like 18 days or so? i only went to like 10 houses. damn.
fifthly, i havent done my homework. i dint know there was homework until my pw group members told me about it. haha. lousy me. and yea, pw's finally over. ergh.
sixthly, i hope it rains today cuz i dont wanna row on the singles. ahhhhh!!!
seventhly, wish me lotsa lotsa luck for sea games. i need all the luck i have. and yea, seven months down to a week. i say again. 7 months....one week. hah.
and finally, i'll introduce to you some hottt pinoy (philippine guys) when i get back on the 5th of dec. hah. just tell me your preferences and likes. haha.
till then,
MWAHHHHH!!!

one more month.

"zOOOOOooooooommmmm!!!"
whoa!

whats that?
that was october?
it went past that fast aye?
w.h.o.a.
*shrugs*

lame-o. hah. aisyah slowly getting back her lameness slowly. i havent cracked a lame joke since *gasp* exam started. well, not any that i could remember. unless every stupid thing i said is considered lame. hah. then, that'll be everyday. oh well, anyways. its 1st of nov and its deepavali and its kinda boring in camp. i mean, really boring. i have no tv and everyone else is sleeping soundly. and he's not around cuz he's at home celebrating deepavali, eating thosai and burfi and gulap jamun. damn. im dying for some gulap jamun. hmmm...
anyways, its like 2 more days to hari raya. and i cant wait. cuz i can collect money, cuz it'll prolly be the only day when i can go out visiting cuz i have to report back to camp the very next day. argh. shittiness. i hate it. hmmm, i only have 2 new baju this year. thats all. no shoes, no bags, no new hairdo. nothing much. doesnt seem like rayer tho. oh what to doooo....
one more month and thats it maaaan. i'll be out of this camp, i get to go out wherever i want, whenever i want, i dont have to sleep thinking of training the next morning, i dont have to wake up to train at 4.30am anymore, i dont have to limit my shopping time so that i can report back to camp for training. whoa~ i dont have to sleep with lizards and rats and mosquitoes and flying things of all sorts. but (there's always a but), i dont get to 'live' with him, dont get to spend as much time as i had with him, dont get to do whateva i want anymore. shit.

yea, one more month. training's getting more intense. we're suffering alot more to the extent that im actually feeling numb already. we go tru a cycle : train, eat, sleep, wake up, and train again. ahhh!!! am i losing my feelings? my emotions? hah. paranoid.

*slaps*

ooohyea, we got our 'goodie bag' yesterday. hah. the sea games bag laaa... sponsored by yonex. no surprise everything they provide us with was badminton-ish. hah. badminton shoes and socks and polo tees. i find them nice actually. hah. not nice also i cannot do anything maah...

oh and my promos were ok, actually. i passed (yippie!) thats what i aimed for and thats what i got. nothing more, nothing less. for the paper itself, i failed econs with 41 marks. hah. the lowest exam mark ive ever gotten in my LIFE. but combined with terms and what i predict is alot of moderation (cuz alot of ppl failed too), i got an E. and maths and geog are both D. not bad aye? considering that i missed school for a month and that i ponned school like noone's business. superrr aye? hah.

even tho its the most disgusting grades ive ever achieved for myself. baaah.

okeylaaa. i need to go orchard later, not to shop laa... meet up with my group members to do pw- the second worst thing i have to endure, other than training. hah.

till then, slamat hari rayerrr and happy deepavali to everyone ok?

mwahhh!!!

post exam. almost.

baaaaah. exams almost over. one more paper to go and thats IT. when i get my results, its either j2 or outta school. hah. im dead-serious. do i look like im joking to you? if i fail, i cant get promoted. thats the whole blardy point of PROMOtional exmas rite?
ooops. no blardy. oops. no vulgarities. fasting fasting. haha. naughty.
oh. im not fasting anyway. hah. do i have to announce that? yala. its a girls thing. which means i haf to pay back like three days. PLUS some leftovers of last year's. about 5 days. so next year, i owe like 13 days. hah. and im training twice a day. thrice on saturdays. baaah. damn tired la. oh shit. oh no. no shits, no damns. no vulgarities aisyah!!!!
hah. yea. must stay clean. must stay clean. c'mon, chant with me. must stay clean. haha. paranoid.
niways. im left with human geog paper next tues. so far, the other papers had been bad. not like bad-haha, but seriously BAD. im just hoping to pass and get into j2. thats all. and my fingers are kept crossed. hmmm, almost all the papers, oh, ALL the papers that i sat for actually were terrible. its either i dint know what to write or i dint had time to write. like the econs essay, i worte a 6lines paragraph for the 9 marks question. whoa~ good luck beb. u know. my friends, even YOU, would have at least a few good hours to study every day but for me, i finish school at 4.30, rush back to camp and train up to 8pm, dinner till 9pm and by 10pm, just as i open my book, i'll fall asleep. dang. and it happens every night. ahhh. damn. oops. ahhh. forget it. its overrrr la. now i can concentrate on training extra extra hard for sea games. ahh yes. i cant wait actually. but seriously, im so not prepared for it. at all.
hmmm, lost weight this week. donno why suddenly dropped like 3kg. maybe cuz im fasting (but im not, u see) haha. maybe cuz dinner isnt appetizing anymore. or breakfast starting to bore me. helllo??? i eat toasted bread and half-boiled egg and with cheese every morning. every single morning of my life in this camp. yes. im dead serious. i dont lie, not during this month. not in other months too. haha.
arrr...im starting to miss my friends. u know like the monstarz like the bachelor's gang like 402 like whoa~ everyone? almost. hah. and the other day i was walking to school with the other ex-BPians in acjc and we have came up with a theory: ppl who used to be popular in sec school arent really popular in jc and vice-versa, ceteris paribus. haha. donno for others but i agree. i agree! hah.
ohkay. i gotta mug for human geog now. after that, i plan to watch downloaded episodes of whos line is it anyway. i love L-O-V-E that show. always makes my laugh until i cry. haha.
oh u know what? i stepped on a small tiny disgusting PIECE of cicak (lizard) this morning. YUCK YUCK YUCK!!!!! it got flattened, no doubt but it was still struggling and swinging and moving and shaking and its tail was jumping and ahhhh....Y-U-C-K. i was utterly disgusted. i sprayed my Baygon directly onto it for like 10 secs. haha. but its still alive so i sprayed my insect-repellent. still to no avail. so i took the courage of kicking it away with the floor mat. haha. true courage, maaan. hah. pathetic.
so ummm, (stop laughing! i HATE cicaks!!!!) ya. if u know me and havent seen me for a while, u know i miss you. haha.
mwahh!!! i love everyone.
happy fasting. and stay clean.
cicak hater,
me =)

the end is near.

did u know?

the worst way to miss someone, is to sit right next to him knowing that u can never get him.

and thats exactly how im feeling.

sometimes, life is unfair, u know? like when u're born into this world as a Malay and u fall in love with this guy who isnt and just bcuz he isnt a Malay, u know u can never ever get him. like if ure born a cat, there's no way u can have sex with a dog right? ok. bad analogy. but u get my point dont u?

i feel shitty. shitty like the piece of shit at the edge of my anus that just wont budge. and shitty feelings top my most hated feeling list. i want this feeling to go away. like how bad i want the 'we-fight-everyday-for-stupid-reasons' virus to go away. i want to feel the same way like i did when i just came back from germany. knowing that i needed him. and he needed me. so much so that our handphone bills combined totalled up to $1000. while i was in germany and he was in amsterdam and we talked on the phone as if we were in singapore. thats how much we needed each other, i think. u think? stupid? i must say. feeling needed? totally.

but now, i dont feel it anymore. i dont feel needed. i dont feel the need. i dont feel anything. cuz he's not Malay. is that right? cuz he's Indian, cant speak Malay for goodness sake and dont believe in God. is it? does things go that way in life? is it my fault that i fell in love with an Indian and not a Malay? is it my fault that i was born a Malay? is it my freaking fault??? then why is this happening to me? oh, so drama-mama.

life is just unfair. good things must always come to an end. somehow. i know it.

ive never felt so miserable in my life before. its like even worse than failing all my term exams. cuz i expected to fail. cuz i dint study. cuz i was busy rowing like as if the day will never be complete without rowing. sometimes, i miss being my old self. i miss mugging alone in my room, locking the door, isolating myself, shouting at whoever dared to disturb me, i miss sitting for exams feeling prepared and i miss passing my exams. honestly, i miss being smart. now, i feel stupid. stupid cuz i failed my exams. stupid cuz i allowed rowing to engulf my life and it made me stupid! stupid cuz i fell in love with an indian? im sorry. i just wish the world is not separated into races and religions.

and while i row and row, i forgot about one of the most important things in life- my friends. its not that i choose to ignore them or try to find excuses not to meet up with them. if i have all the freakin' time in the world, i would spend all my time with them. but now that all my freakin' time has been consumed by rowing, i hardly have any time left to even say hi. my life sucks. like mosquitoes which had bitten 15 times on my right arm and another 10 on my left, 6 on my right leg and innumerable on my left (cuz i gave up counting). yea. like how NICE mosquitoes suck, my life goes on the same way too. blardy hell.

i better stop before my stress hormones rage up to every corner of my brain cell. then i'll start growing white hair, get even more stress and die of stress. i dont want to die of stress. neither do i wanna die fat. or stupid. i wanna die in peace.

ok. so whats my problem now. its 2 am. i should be sleeping cuz my head feels heavy and my eyes are tearing like hell. have u seen my eye bags? did u know that i had to sleep at 12 almost every night and wake up at 4.30 every morning. and no i dont get to take a nice hot shower and prepare for school. i wake up to lift weights for at least one hour then i'll take a cold shower, eat lousy breakfast and rush to school.

so whenever u think ur life sucks, whenever u wake up feeling like shit and dont wanna go to school, and before u complain about stress, think of me. and u'll feel fine. trust me.

till then, i will stay strong.

survival skills #01- never give up. not now. NEVER.

love rule #01- never fall in love with someone who isnt ur race or religion. NEVER. but when u're already in love, dont come to me. i cant help, cuz i cant even help myself. sad.

oh well.

i want my smart self back. please.

korea.germany.

[this is the way we row the boat.]

[and this is the way we smile.]

WHOA!

one month beb. 4 weeks. 28 days.
fooooooo-yoh.
i wanna babble to you ALL about it!!!
lemme start with korea - Asian Junior Rowing Champs 2005. Hwa Cheon, Korea.

ANYO-HASEYO.

i saw the 38th parallel! not actually the border. i just saw this huge rock at the side of the road that says, "38th PARALLEL". almost saw it. big thing man. big thing.
we stayed in this motel. i was afraid to sleep alone so i insisted on sleeping with my rowing partner. felt sorry for her. we shared the same queen size bed in a tiny room that could only fit the bed, a tv and 2 of us. the water supply is either FREEZING cold or BLARDY hot.
the food we eat everyday, 3 times a day for 7 days, is almost the same for every meal. egg, bread, milk, kimchi, rice, mayo, jam, watermelon, kimchi, kimchi and kimchi. and kimchi makes me go, EUGHHYUCK. yuck. yuck. yuck.
the water we row in is cool and the surrounding is beautiful. hardly any winds or waves.
the people are friendly. but the town is just too small for a big shopping fanatic like me. i was bored. dead bored. the town looks almost dead at night.
no cute guys. not at all. its either that or i dun haf the thing for small-eyed guys. no offence ahh. oh and the chinese rowers look like uncles!! its a junior rowing competition for goodness sake. i wonder how they would look like when they're actually older.

the kazakhastan guys were not bad-looking. other than that...

no bread. no bun.

no eye candy. no fun.

im aisyah. what do u expect?

oh btw, we dint win anything in korea. came in last for every race but our time improved from 8"09mins to 8"02mins. was a lil disappointed but we learnt a lot.

its singapore in an asian comp. what do u expect?

then there was the transit from korea to singapore and to amsterdam and then to berlin. i travelled to 4 countries within 24 hours. big thing man. big thing.

Brandenburg, Germany- World Juniors Champs 2005

the amsterdam airport was blardy long. and we only had like 15 mins to get from one end of the airport to another. and we were caught up in long long long blardy damn long queues. and we ran and ran and ran and our throats were freakin dry and hurting. and we reached the gates for our flight to berlin- 5 mins late. and the flight left us. blardy hell. we waited about an hour for the next flight.

from berlin, someone fetched us to brandenburg.

we reached a small town called plaue, where our boathouse was located. big blue beautiful house. facing a lake. the place simply rocks. u heard that right. R-O-C-K-S. whoa. everything about our stay in germany rocks big time man. big time.

esp the food. we had cooks hired for us! 4 of them. and the food they serve us are super-duper delicious. waffle. yoghurt. nutella. pancakes. meltedbutter. cheeseandmushroom. pasta. grilled chicken. chicken salami. quiches. cereal. fruit salad. alot la. alot! and everyday, mtv mtv and mtv. with weekly pimp my ride sessions.

the weather can be annoying at times. there was once when it rained like shit for a few minutes. we were blardy cold and almost freezing and then we were burning under the hot sun the next minute!! odd but cooool. on our last day, it rained ice droplets. not snow. neither hailstorms. just tiny ice droplets. cooooooool, aye?

the guys are hott hott hottt! esp the rowers. austria, spain, south africa, slovenia, italy, serbia and montenegro, alot la. really. alot! nice to see. haha. but i like the japan guy best. super cute! oh damn, his name slipped off mymind. nevermind.

the water isnt nice to us. there was all kinds of winds. tailwind, crosswind, headwind. its not easy to get a good timing there bcuz of the winds.

anyway, we beat one team to get into final B which is a big big thing, esp for singapore. esp for me. hard work paid off. even tho we were last for the semis and the finals, we finished them smiling. cuz our timings were good. our techniques were almost flawless. our coordination was there. thats all we want. that sense of achievement. we came. we rowed. and we left. haha.

oh and we had sponsors. and we had our own van that drove us around. we got sooooo many souvenirs from our sponsors and friends. we went to the city and to berlin for shopping. berlin rocks, btw. foo yoh. my shopping paradise. but i had not much money so it was kinda a waste.

i saw the berlin wall, left my hand and footprint on it.

we went to alot of places, did a lot of things, appeared in the papers 4 times! appeared on tv twice! whoa~

it was really fun. seriously fun.

damn, i miss germany. alot.

shit maaaaan.

ergh.

back to school.

sorry i dint mention about getting any homework done. cuz i dint get any done.

die.

anyway, happy national day. wee. ("-_-)

between rowing and death

heyy ya!!

im feeeeeellllliiiiinnnnn' damn good. cuz i just ate tim tam original chocolate biscuits dipped in hot milo. damn irresistable. like me. haha. mosquitoes cant resist me ahh. am i that sweet?? awwww. im bloody touched. haha. punny punny. get it? bloody? mosquitoes? yea.

*slap!!!*

aisyah deserves that.

anyways, i have currently infinite mosquito bites on my legs and arms. i need mopiko. seriously. so yea. im trapped here somewhere in pandan. around jalan buruh. next to the pandan reservoir. im in camp for goodness sake. when normal people go on holidays or can shop around orchard road like noone's business. im still here. always will be here. goddammnit. i just realised that i haf no life.

*gasp*

no im not in some leisure camp or one week camp. nono. not a one month camp. not two months either. three months? errr. no. its a freakin' 6 months camp. 6 months? yes. 6 months. as in 12345...6. ya. SIX MONTHS camp. im serious. do u think i have time to lie to u? u heard that right. 6 months. so, the camp started like 3 weeks ago. and i cant beilieve i survived 3 bloody hellish torturous damn exhausting weeks. or was it 4 weeks? see i lost track of time. and ive not been watching tv since then. but i do watch movies once in a while. im a little bit of pro-piracy. like as if u're NOT. like the other day i watched pirates of the carribean. oh wait. that was original DVD mind u. btw, that movie was like so yesterday. and meet the fockers too. oh shitty hell. im so OUTDATED. help me, guys.

ass-hoooooooooole!!!

so where was i my dear? ahh yes. the camp. its some sort of a so-called rowing training camp or whateva shit u call it la ok. but it involves rowing, getting tired and all the shit. haha. lets not be so pessimistic ok? lemme see. the training schedule is like 3 trainings everyday. i mean it. every single day, mind you. wake up at 5 every morning, sometimes we go for a 6km jog. but at most times we do gym sessions. like just now we did 180 squats non stop. come again? 180!! i told u i got no time to lie to you! and ya. 180 crunches, 180 bench press (is that what u call it???) and 180 weight lifting ah. i donno what weight lifting mehtod precisely and i don care, actually. hmmm...so u still complaining having to wake up early in the morning??? think about my mornings before u start to grumble.

recently, we ran out of cheese so we have to eat bread and tuna but dammit, i dont eat tuna! so plain bread dipped in hot milo fer me, except today la. cuz i bought tim tam biscuits. Mmmmm. tim tam biscuits. *with that homer simpson "MMMMmmmmm..."* bleargh. im gonna grow fat and die soon.

where was i again?? err..ok. so my next training is at 11am. that will be egro training. in the gym. not so bad, so i dont get any BLACKER (more on that later). and at 5pm like that we go down on water to row. like 55mins non stop or 45mins 2 sets. yepyep. if u think ur life feels like shit, think of me and i promise u, u'll feel thankful and great. trust me.

the BRIGHTER side of this is the travelling. im leaving for Korea this july and straight from there, we'll head over to Germany for some sort of World Rowing Championship. and not a single cent out from my pocket unless i have to buy stuffs for people back home. i'll have to think about that. haha. the bad thing is that im gonna miss school for one whole bloody month. oh its a good thing?? nah. i dont think so. im sooooooo gonna fail my exams. i have terms right after the june hols and im sooooo not prepared for it. nono, its not the usual i dint study lie. im sorry if i lied to u guys before that i dint study for exmas but right now im serious. serious. SERIOUS. i dont know if i haf time to study. im soooooo gonna die, my friends. love me now before i leave.

*slap!*

aisyah deserves another spanking.

so yea. training makes me strong. haha. have u seen my legs? my left calf is bigger than my right. its super conspicuous and damn ugly ah. haf u seen my skin? its almost BLACK. with red spots. mosquito kisses. i feel loved. haha. yea. got burnt last week when we had the merlion rowing champs at seletar reservoir. the filipinos guys dint come. which was such a waste. notti me. and i got news that the 190cm guy quit the rowing team. *sniff*

butthere was this damn cute thai guy. u know jolly well ive got good taste. haha. took a pict with him but who says im gonna show it to u? haha. got a bronze, a silver and capsized on my single event. damn MALU! lets not talk about that. yea.

so yep. last week was hot and happening. hot as in, hot weather. haha. u should really have a look at my state now. im so dark people mistook me as a thai. oh no, some even thot i was a black african. thanks a lot, guys. that was damn nice to hear.

so, i STILL owe alot of people stuffs. like a prezzie for shaheen, a hug for hazie. damn. im a lousy friend. sorry guys. i'll get back to ya as soon as i find a life out here.

till then,

aisyah *=)

miss u loads.

**MWAHH**

cows

mamenimamenimoomameni moomame -

i hate that song.
and the programme too. what the freakin hell are they trying to bring across to children? love cows and be like them? eat, play, sing, walk and sleep with them??? cartoons these days..
*shakes heads and sighs*

cows.
and so they call it. yalah, my rowing friends lah. they are so so so mean and evil and irritating and annoying you know?

they call me the COW.

ouch, guys, ouch.

being big black fat ugly annoying spotty weird fleshy and yummy doesnt make me a cow, does it?

oh my freaking tian. yes, i do look like a cow. shitty tian. what the tian. oh tian.

am i being over-paranoid. tian.

what's with the tian, u may ask. hmmm, dont ask me. ask ocbc. nono. ask acjc. haha.

u cant say oh my god, u see cuz u're not allowed to use God's name in vain, u see so the tian comes in u see. do u see it?

i donno what's happening to me. im losing my lameness. i hardly laugh these days cuz there's noone to crap with. noone to laugh with. i sound like a loser, dont i? oh no. i sound like a cow. do u see letters in this page? or is it only filled with moos and maas and maes. and more more moos??? tian tian!! my skin is black n burnt. it produces so much oil im just worried the blardy hot sun might set it to fire one day and burn my whole body down to ashes. and i have to undergo plastic surgery and i can choose to get fairer skin.

aye. not a bad idea. hmmm.

oh what the tian. what the moo. moo? moo! oh shit. look even moos started to creep into my speeches. help helo heoo meoo moooo....

*sticks out 3 fingers and drag them down my cheeks*

phew. i still have fingers. nono. im not turning into a cow, am i?

maybe i should stop mooing around and get on with my life!! i mean....stop freaking whining and complaining, u fat cow. whoa~ hear the concsience speak.

ok. maybe im right. look on the bright side of life. which is...ummm...i haf to think about that. in the meantime. i should stop thinking im a cow. anyway, whats so bad about being called a cow?

without cows, there's no milk and babies cant grow tall and strong like me. without cows, there's no meat and more chickens and fishes will die. without cows, the grass in the fields will grow like noone's business. without cows, there's lesser dung in this world and farmers haf to spend more money to buy fertilisers which is not as good as cow dung. without cows, there's no me. and when there's no me. u'll never see light in this world ever again.

oh my tian. im mooing around again. oh look. cow crap. (aka cow dung).

how come cows are so fat even tho they only eat grass?

anyhow, i gotta go now.

take my cow sleep and dream about cows.

there goes another episode of ma me mo.

moo moo here moo moo there moo moo everywhere in nicholas' rowing centre.

the COW.

an entry dedicated to r.a.m.u.k, with much cow love and crap.

i reread the whole entry. and yea. its full of crap and dung. moo on, guys. moo on.

so its my fault

so its my fault that im tall. so its my fault that im in netball and rowing. so its my fault that i dont go for rowing when i go for netball training. so its my fault that i dont go for netball when i have rowing training. so its my fault that i always get my coaches pissed at me. so its my fault that i dint go for one netball training bcuz i had to go for rowing training and i dont get to play for like the whole season. so its my fault that i came from bp netball team instead of mgs or chij. so its my fault that im in the acjc netball team and national rowing team at the same time. so its my fault that i sleep in lectures and tutorials cuz i only sleep like 4 or 5 hours every night. so its my fault that i hardly do my homework. so its my fault that i have training until 8pm everyday. so its my fault that my school is so far i reach home at 10pm everyday. so its my fault that i have blisters on my feet and on the palms of my hands. so its my fault that im super dark. so its my fault that i have blardy fungal infections on my neck. so its my fault that my muscles are getting bigger day by day. so its my fault that im getting fatter day by day. so its my fault that i turned 17 and got the least amount of birthday presents ive ever gotten in my life. so its my fault that my brother had to pay $100++ for my birthday dinner at Royal Plaza on Scotts. so...so everything's my fault, is that right?
stop pointing fingers at me.

putrajaya

yo guys!!
miss me?? i know u guys do =)
updating in school library now. 2 free periods cuz finally after much thinking (oh look, i ACTUALLY thot abt it) yup, i dropped malay. finally right? after 10 yrs. i wanted to take ahh cuz i realise its my culture, my language but dont get me started on my fickleness again. ive made up my mind. taking 4 subj, including lit is already a killer. whao~ u could just see LOST written all over my face in lit class esp when we analyse Othello. anyway,
... sorry ive not been updating lahh. my life is like super busy i dont even have time for myself. im serious. rowing, netball, school, homework, and loads of homework, tests, aaahhhhh!! i hardly watch tv, i hardly sleep, i hardly window shop anymore!! i hardly keep in touch with my friends. i go school, sleep in lectures, and stone all day! eeek! i think i betta get a life before i turn into a zombie soon. =(
anyway, yup. i went for a short trip to kl last weekend. there was a mini rowing competition in the b-e-a-utiful city of Putrajaya in malaysia. whoa~ the city is like a paradise with all the gigantic and oh-so pretty architectural buildings and houses. it was almost perfect u know. yup, THAT beautiful. i dont mind moving in there one day. the houses there are huge and beautiful. mind the limited vocab. nice, huge, beautiful...muahaha. but really really. u should visit putrajaya and u'll just go WHOA~
yup. so i stayed in the same hotel when i went to kl in jan. the 3 star super budget hotel. yup, that one. geee. so it was a 45mins journey from the hotel to putrajaya every morning. ok so we reached kl in the morning of april fool's day. yupyup. skip school!! checked in. ate soggy sausages and cold eggs for breakfast. (told ya it was budget hotel). i wore shorts and tee to the lake in pj ahh and i dint know it was that...umm...u know...particular. so i had stares from the locals as if they want to eat me up. scary mary~
so err...yea. without much preparation and hardly any training, me and other 3 girls competed in the women's quads events with the malaysians. and yea. it was our very first time rowing together and yea. guess what? we won 1st. shocking indeed. i dint expect us to win the m'sian national rowers but we did so, yea. we won RM 1600 divided into 4 so we receive RM400 each. *grins*
not only that,k immediately i received a call from my mum back in spore congratulating me...and i was like, "how the hell do u know?" and she said that i was on tv!! hehe. our damn lucky day aye? also, i got another gold in the doubles event with my dearest partner, ong shuying. during the heats, my seat came out halfway ahh. so i only rowed with my hands. but we still got first and went to the finals anyway. the finals was a breeze. cuz my partner is super strong ahh... i salute her man. so we won RM800 divided into 2 which makes it andother RM400 for me. *grins grins*
hmmm...i also competed in the singles event but just as my event began, the rain started to pour like mad and the waves began to roll and u blardy well know how i hate choppy waters!! and now im on the singles boat!!! anyway, i rowed like hell. i dint realise i was second all the way until the very end when i thot my boat went out of lane so i sort of pulled harder on the right and immediately, 2 other boats caught up and i ended up last. i lost to the second runner-up by o.1 seconds. WHOA~ i just lost my chance of getting another RM600. i was so frustrated everyone tried their best to cheer me up. hmm, so sweet of them.
so i came with RM200 and went home with RM800. not bad aye? i exchanged numbers with 2 malaysian guys. one is from sabah and another from sarawak if im not wrong. exchange for fun. i dont trust these type of guys any more. yea. aisyah's all grown up! *applause*
so, what are u thinking of right now? treating u to lunch? guess whats in my shoe? my foot. yup. i need to save up, treat myself to some new clothes and yah...find time to pamper myself once in a while. hehe. and i still owe lots of ppl birthday presents. gosh.
ok, gotta go. cya guys around. take care ya?
miss ya'll loads! mwahh!
love,
Aisyah *=)

results!!

guess what? u dint know? but the whole world knew!! what?? what???
i met taufik batisah!!! face to face, one on one and i even got a mugshot with him!!! haha...u see, after the o results, i went to orchard to meet my mum. we had dinner at sakura, far east plaza. then i realised that i was sitting only a few metres away from taufik batisah!!! i was so super duper pizza's gonna blind me excited nak mampos ahh, i was like, "Makkkk....taufik batisah is behind you..." u know...i was nearly screaming, contorting my face trying hard not to scream...so, i waited for him and his gang to pay the bill and i actually did it! yes!! i did it! i went up to him and said, "hi taufik, can i take a picture with you?" he was like, "yea sure." so i asked one of his friends to take a picture of me and him together using my cam fon. wah wah!!! i was like super duper uber extra megawati sukarno happy lahh. last year i was dying to meet him ahh but all of a sudden, fate brought us together. awww. touchy touchy.

anyway, that was like a few weeks back. been so busy these days. especailly after the o level results and stuffs. ok, i'll keep u updated. hmmm...i seriously, truly, madly, deeply didnt expect to get what i got ahh. i thot i would have gotten 10++ for my L1R5. i didnt really mug like hell for the o's cuz i was far too exhausted after the prelims. i got 8, tho. my greatest disappointment is my b3 for english and a2 for amaths. but other than that, im really happy cuz its like the first time i've got a1 for higher malay. and my comb. humans (ss+lit) is an a1 and honestly, i dint finish the ss paper!! so, i have 7 distinctions in all which is...like whoa~ to me. cuz that's what ive been aiming for (^-^) and so, mrs whats her name? ong. yes of cuz, it slipped of my mind for a moment there. yes, mrs ong read out the names of those who have like 6 As and above so when my name was being called out i was so so so shocked i actually screamed and i so dint realise i was flapping my hands like...yea, like when i see a cute guy and i'll go, "so cute (flap flap)" yea, that flap. so so...i was like super duper mega extremely truly wooly really weally happy ahh...and yea, i was caught on tv all the while from the moment i screamed, followed by the flapping which made me look like a total bimbo and when i walked up to the stage, the first thing osgodby said to me was "tuck in ur goddamn shirt." nice. and instantly, when the news was broadcasted on air, i received like 10 sms. yea, i call it..my few seconds of fame. muahaha.

yea, so, i've made my choice of school. yupyup. i guess i'll be staying in ac.

i wont regret. i wont regret. i wont regret. will i? *slaps myself*

anyways, im still in the ac netball team but i doubt tt i'll be picked in the first team ahh. i dont mind actually cuz i've still got rowing as my 'back up' plan. haha. im mean. oklah, actually, im working hard for both sports and im prepared to die early at the end of the day. donno how far im gonna go. how far i can make it. aiyah. i dont wanna think to much. thinking makes me SICK. so i wont think.

ummm, yea. im having this 4 days netball training camp im so looking forward to. its starts today and ends on thursday. we're having like 3-4 trainings a day. oh so fun. i cant wait!

("-_-) oh well, wish me luck lah...thats all i need i guess. and yea. miss me, ok?

i owe a lot of people birthday presents... :(

gotta pack! cya guys around.

lotsa lotsa love,

ACJC PERBAYU ROCKS,

so do i.

Aisyah *=)

wakaka~

assalammualaikum!

ehem. i misssssss everyone! haha. really. ive been so caught up with only 3 ppl in my life recently which is Me, Myself and I, that i forgot about other ppl like YOU! yes, feeling lucky today aye? cuz aisyah misses you soo soooooo much! (^-^)

ok, the past weeks had been super busy. i was damn exhausted by thursday, i couldnt even push myself of my bed that morning. my eyes simply wouldnt open. so yea, pon school. i hate ponning cuz u miss a lot of lessons in one day and u feel blardy guilty u hadnt been there. maybe, its just me. im like ms. perfect attendence, you see. anyway, on that day when i ponned in the morning, i actually went to school in the afternoon juz in time for geog test. uhh yes.

btw, i crashed aj last monday. dint really like it. im sorry. its juz not my type of school. but den, acjc is not my type as well, so is rj or hc. oh whateva aisyah. there goes my fickle-mindedness again. i'll prolly stay in ac whether or not i get in the netball school team. i dont want to go tru that i-dont-know-anyone-and-i-feel-like-shit period again. no way. even tho i so dont look forward to school every single day, there's nothing much i can do aye? oh well...

so, results are out in like 2 days time. im not scared...yet. haha. its like impossible for saiyidah aisyah binte mohamed rafa'ee not to get scared. btw, i expect to get higher than 10. and i dont expect my name to be called out so, no pressure beb. unless like almost all 402 ppl are being called on stage except me. ergh, that would be my worst nightmare. anyway, i juz hope for the best. and for everyone too. there's rally nothing we can do now but to pray and hope and wait. and of course, keep our hopes high. awww, aisyah's into spirituality all of a sudden.

so umm, what else is there to say? im growing fatter? haha, out of point but horrifyingly true. ummm, yea, i exchanged uniforms with one of my cedar classmate last week. it was fun. haha. someone actually wanted to wear the BP uniform. i think i should be thankful tt finally i dont have to wear maroon ever again. 10years, my dear. 10 years of maroon skirt. enuf i said.

oh yea, ac had cross country last week and it was my first time cuz bp never had cc before. and macritchie's route was super tough. uphills and downhills and monkeys and roots and rocks and a long stretch of highway and whao~ i almost gave up halfway when i climbed that awful treacherous uphill that led to the highway. but i just ran and ran for dont know what reason. and i actually survived the 3.2km run and i came in 30th for the girls. for a beginner, it was considered not bad, aye? heh. my timing was around 20 plus laa. the first girl made it in 15 mins. like WHOA~

yea, i had swim pe too and it was kinda fun actually. i get to learn freestyle cuz i already know how to swim frogstyle. one of my skinny guy classmate who's in the ac swim team stripped down to his trunks and 8 packs of ab muscles simply (what do u call it)...protrude? haha. it was like...whoa~ lah. dint really expect him to have such a beautiful bod. sheash....=P

okok. i hafta stop killing myself now. gotta get some sleep. hafta row again tmr. eat, sleep, row, play netball, study. i have no life.

today i found out that there's actually a rowell road in singapore.

interesting aye?

aisyah rocks- igneously, metamorphically and sedimentarily.

Aisyah *=)

dilemma.

yo! whats up ya'll? miss u guys so much!! so whats been revolving around me? umm...lemme see. its already 6 weeks down jc life and i think it simply gets tougher day by day. i end school at 4.30pm everyday except for wednesdays but netball trainings are on mondays, wednesdays and fridays and they can end as late as 8pm. reaching home at 9pm is already like a normal routine for me. and there's so many assignments and revisions to do!! i know u'll go on saying stuffs like "its only the first 3 months" but i dont think its only the first 3 months. its THE first 3 months. oh whateva~ i think these first 3 months are important and i cant possibly slack cuz when i start slacking, i'll lose a lot! thats why i never did skip school to crash other jcs even tho im dying to do that. maybe i should. oh crap. there goes my fickle-mindedness. kill me. i dont deserve to walk on the face of the earth. haha. whateva, aisyah. im sorry guys. i'll stop complaining. i think im under stress. oh and i have pimples after like a month of pimple-less face. shit. ok, that'll be my last complain. i'll try.

what else is there to say? the rowing assosiation had the spore pools rowing champs last week and yep, there were rowers from msia and indonesia too. i miss those guys already. anyway, me and my partner, shuying, won silver for our doubles event. not bad aye? actually we were last then we caught up with the mlysians and some God-sent miracle made us beat the hong kongers by a split second. the race was no doubt super tiring, so tiring i felt like dying halfway! but winning silver was a great achievement for me, dont u think so? my first silver. heh. my singles event was terrible. it was my first singles event and i had no training whatsoever. ok, the water at pandan reservoir that day was awfully bad and mind you, i was on the single sculls boat. it was so difficult to get into the starting position because the wind and waves kept on pushing me away from the boat holder so its like even before the race began, i'm like so tired already. and since it was blardy well my first time, i took quite a long time getting into position and the other rowers had to wait for me. the president of the assosiation sort of chided me for not listening to him cuz i wasnt following his instructions and i was given a warning. i was so upset and disappointed. ahh...u know that shitty feeling and u know i hate to be reprimanded. and God-knows-why i started crying!! so i was crying like shit truout the whole race and of course bad start, bad race. i was so not prepared, i went so out of lane, i was so tired..and my mlysian competitior overtook me. blardy hell. i was so pissed off at myself.

so i dint manage to get into the final. oh it was heats btw. so there was the repercharge which deters 2 more rowers in the final 4. and my coach, being honest, told me, "u know u cant win this but aim for something else like staying in the lane." it dint sound nice or encouraging at all but i heeded his advice. and he was right, actually. so, i actually ended up last happy and smiling. ooh, optimistic me =)

so umm...now, i have to go through a really tough decision making point for the first time in my life in which it concerns my life and death. ok, enuf of drama-mama. i have to choose which one i should prioritize more: netball or rowing. if u were me, what would u do?

anyway, last thursday, hazi crashed ac. it was kinda nice having her company around. after school, for the first time in my ac life, i actually had free time. so we sort of hanged out at holland v. which i thot was a like happening place but there was nothing interesting there at all. so, yea.

and do any of u know the cheapest way to call philippines?? cuz i bought a $9 world idd card the other day to call him and i actually got through. yea, we talked and talked and i so dint realise that the time limit of 50mins was over and our conversation was cut off abruptly. blardy hell. btw, he was super sweet. hehe. so, if u guys know the cheapest way to call philippines, please tell me i beg you!!

i better do my assignments now lah.. see ya guys around yah?

take care.

in love with a pinoy,

ME *=)

rowell

heya guys! finally im able to write another entry. ive been dying to flood my blog with what telah happened these past weeks!!
so here goes: the trip to kl was a blast!! i dreaded the trip for the first few days cuz it was super boring. first day of arrival, we ate slumber breakfast. some soggy stuffs. then, took a 30mins ride to Batu Dam where the race's gonna take place. the dam was damn nice. (yah...haha.) at least nicer view than the factories in pandan reservoir. anyways, yea. all i did for the first day was sit under the super duper hot merciless sun and did a little bit of riggings to my boat here and there. i think we went down to the water for a while to test the boat. uhh, the water was super scary, i tell u. something ive nvr experienced back in spore. so we found out that the boat was unsuitable for me and my partner, shuying. so forget the painstaking riggings and all, we had to choose another boat that could support our weight. oh what the heck. i dont think u're all bothered with all these, yah?
okok. i'll move on to the exciting partS of my wonderful trip. 1stly, there were a handful of seriously tall dark and handsome guys. i mean it. and they come from philippines, indo and msia. i dont know abt spore's rowers. haha. but it was lyk, "WHOA~" *boy crazy mood activated* i hardly know them on the first day but as days passed by, they slowly get to know me, and i got to know them and yeah~ they're a bunch of super cute, super friendly, super tall, dark and handsome lads. national rowers ley. dont play play. anyways, when they smile, ooh, u'll just go week in the knees! ok, aisyah. stop it. =P
rowell tolentino- thats his name. yea. the 190cm, 21 yr old hotie from philippines. when i thot adeel was super tall, standing next to rowell was lyk super WHOA! i took pictures with him twice and yea, i dont mind u showing it to u all but i haf no idea how to post pictures in my entry. haha. so, yep, we exchanged numbers, he gave me one of his nike wristbands. u noe the "in-thing" now. he had 3 of them all blue. so wall-faced me asked if i could haf one. he was sweet enough to hand me one.

the SEA rowing federation had a dinner cum karaoke on one of the last few days of our stay. that was the first time the other filipino guy asked for my name. mark, yea. i heard he's a little cheeky. haha. but he was kinda cute. well, everyone was cute so yah. haha.

the rest of the story, is my darkest secret.

and syahir came up with a super lame joke of the week: aisyah's darkest secret...

her skin.

where was i? uhh yes. chinatown. the haven of cheap imitaion goods. i dint know i was a shopaholic until i stepped into chinatown. and yea, i learnt the art of bargaining as well. i also went to berjaya times square. bought pirated dvds. went to the indoor theme park. oh, we walked to BTS with the filippinos but they dint follow us to the theme park. i got the chance to walk with rowell for a few minutes. haha. suker ahh tuu. *blush* ummm, yea, raihan awarded me the loudest and most irritating screamer for the day. cannot tahan lahh, the rides were super scary. what luck those filipinos werent there. haha. after about 4 thrill rides, my head felt like spinning off my neck. blardy headache.

after that, i went for a little shopping for girls' clothes. guess what? i went clubbing for the first time! it wasnt really nice. the club was dark, smoky, loud, noisy, havoc, wild. WHOA. i was so lost in that sinful place. i couldnt dance. so, it was SO not a place for me. no more. aisyah will always stay innocent. promise.

ummm, the worst moment of the trip was saying goodbye to the filipino guys. haha. part and parcel of life yea.

well, in case u dint see my name in the papers, (hehe) we came in 3rd for our double sculls event. we almost capsized twice. bcuz the water was blardy fierce. haha. wah, i miss last week already. haha.

got back to school with "lost" written all over my face. one week has passed but i still haf not yet blended in into the surroundings. acjc is an english school. no doubt abt that. ive never felt so mute during netball trainings. its lyk the scgs, chij, mgs and rgs girls makes up about 99% of the team. that leaves only me. from bp. uhhh, life's tough but ive gotta do what i wanna do. yea.

so far, not so good, but what to do, i must try to fit in or i'll regret my 3mths. well, i look forward to the cny celebration when the malay cultural society gets to perform dikir barat. and yea, this means that all the malay acjcian gets together. yey.

today, i just ended another rowing competition. won 2 silver. had my first singles race. and the water had to be mean to me. anyways, philippines wasnt invited so haha. nothing much lah.

missing all the people and things i miss,

Aisyah *=)

acjc.orientation.05

...i wanna say something.

...acjc rocks.

well, for the first week of orientation lah. we havent had any lectures yet. no ccas yet. no traininigs, no competitions, no tests, no exams...yet. but so far, its better, much much better than i had expected. i actually had fun, made a number of friends and surprisingly, ended up in one of the top arts class just because my L1R5 is lower than 10.

so my class is in a cabin. again. yes. but its called the North Lodge like some kind of a hotel or something. oh it doesnt look like one, trust me. my teacher is this irani lady called mrs dolly. she's kinda funny. and nice. my class has 20 ppl, 18 girls and 2 damn lucky guys. im the only malay girl. well, expected lahh. oh btw, jc1s in ac this year has only 20 malay ppl out of the 900+. yea. and im even taller than the malay boys. how sad. very sad.

the seniors came to our class, then we went to theirs. we got a small get-to-know session which was pretty fun, btw. and one of my senior is this small guy, about half a head shorter than me, dark and super cute. ask xinjie or sam, they'll go, "oh u mean raj? *squeals*" yea. Raj. esp when he pulls his pants high up when he's acting as the Bubble of Olendros. makes u wanna hug him like a really cute soft toy. so, we played angel and mortal and yea, that was it. dont know if i can survive in arts class. dont know why the hell i chose arts. oh shit.

on friday, we were sorted into houses. mine was Shaw House. yea. its the guy who founded the Shaw Movie thingy. hahaha. so, our cheer goes something like this,

"Watch movie! Shaw House! (x3)

Go Lido!!!"

("-_-) i know.

and the cheerleading captain is Darroch Chua from acsi whom later i found out that he was my primary school classmate. oh my god. i cant believe he used to be this really skinny and pale guy with think white plastic-rimmed glasses. now, he's kinda cute.

we had OG time in the afternoon for about 4 hours. so we travelled to bugis and ate lunch at a prata shop. oh, u expected something more expensive bcuz most of my group memebers are filthy rich aye? that was only lunch mind u. and the service at the prate shop was pretty bad so we were there for about an hour or so. then, we headed to the billard centre. its like only my second time playing pool so i was pretty bad. no, damn bad, actually. the acs guys were really good. one of them thought me how to aim and stuffs. and i had a little chat with this super duper uber cute chinese high guy. oh, he's not only super duper uber cute, he's a GEP student and a softball player. he goes clubbing, drinks but doesnt smoke. he said that smoking kills faster den drinking. ok~ and he was my dance partner, tho he cant dance really well. i asked him how he picked girls in the clubs, he replied, "i get drunk and yeah.." i think im the most innocent person in acjc. i think bp ppl are pretty innocent. nono, seriously innocent. i'll show u his picts once i get them from my OGL. i feel lucky. we danced like 6 times, but still could not get the steps right. oh darn. who cares. my dance partner is the cutest chinese high guy ive ever seen.

ok, so we planned to eat at swensons for dinner. told ya prata was lunch only. but the boys were kinda engrossed in showing off their pool skills so we skipped dinner and i was blardy hungry for the whole night. and the nxt morning, i lost 2kg. seriously.

we returned to school for campfire. ohhh...the atmosphere was hectic sia! everyone was excited. i was only looking forward to the mass dance, honestly. well, everything was ok. except that some performances were super duper lame and crappy, not as in haha lame but, ("-_-) lame. there weren't many games lah, thats the down turn, i guess.

so mass dance was WHOA~ not only bcuz my partner's super cute. haha. they played the Boogie and Superstar song over and over and over again and i dint even felt a tinge of boredom. i was feeling super high. i danced as if the world's gonna end. and towards the final dance, when my super cute partner has already tired out, i grabbed his arm and told him to keep on dancing. muahaha. he's super sporting. and there's the "come baby" song which i LOVE and he HAD to sing it to me, "come aisyah come aisyah aisyah come come." hahahaha. ok, stop it.

*screams*

i miss the mass dance!!!!

*sniff*

we left the school gate about 11.15pm. then, thats when this super cute acsi rugger talked to me!!!! what do u think of, "hey, ure malay eh? whats ur name??" xinjie and arthur overheard him asking me and they thot it was the lamest pick up line they've ever heard but i thot it was super cute, just like the person!!! haha. *drool* and the rest of the story is left unfold. why should i tell u? muahahaha.

yesterday, went back to bp for the sec1 campfire. yea. another one. no wonder im having super conspicuous eyebags. met the ppl i miss aLOT! almost everyone was boasting about their jcs. we, the seniors, had successfully made some ppl hate us even more. and i have to admit that our batch is the last of the enthu ppl. too bad sec1s, u have 3 years and 11 months to go.

enjoy.

and yea. super fun week, i tell u. next week, im leaving for kl. wish me luck, guys. im gonna make spore proud. haha. like real. its the SEA C'ships and i havent had any serious trainings at all. im gonna miss ya. and acjc too.

super tall, superMe,

Aisyah *=)

first day of school.

yep. first day of school in ACJC.

excited?

not really, actually.

woke up late.

bad hair day.

blardy conspicuous eyebags had to appear.

sunburn on my forehead.

ergh. ergh. ergh.

they had assembly in the air-conditioned hall. with chairs. i know, swakoo! well, there was the principal's talk. she ended her speech with a prayer. so i felt awfully lost for a few minutes. gotta get used to it. the school is SO christian. after the prayers, me and sam exchanged that look.

so, there was the subject combi talk which i found rather useless being held NOW. the funniest had to be the discipline talk. oh no it wasnt literally funny as in haha funny but u see, ac is choke full of girls with super short skirts and boys with pants so low u could almost peep on their boxers. and the discipline mistress went, "for girls, skirts should be knee-length, 2cm or less above knee and boys, no baggy or loose pants. and white shoes with colour markings, for footwear." i went, "ok~" the girls must haf mistaken the 2cm for 2 hands spacing. and i dint know a black shoe with white markings could be considered white shoes with colour markings.

*scratch. scratch.*

the councillors took over after that. they are seriously a bunch of enthu and wacky crazy loud ppl. somewhat like me when im normal but just now, i was a little shy lah.

and yea. ACJC is a haven of super cute guys and chio bus as well. its like in every nook and cranny of the school u turn to, there'll be a cute, hot, gorgeous guy. but the bad thing is, next to every super cute guy u see, there'll always be a super chio bu. life is unfair. lets face it. haha.

oh and i must say that the more handsome u are, the more unfriendly u'll be. true? maybe its just the first day. i hope the students are nicer tomorrow or the day after tomorrow or soon.

and i must also say that almost everyone there talks like arvind and matthew. with an even thicker accent that makes u feel blardy inferior. i dont give a damn. i dont intent to change the way i speak juz bcuz they speak like that. actually i do. but oh *slap* be yourself. be proud of yourself.

we're divided into groups or so called clans with super weird names. oh, there's supposed to be a story to the names of the clans but the sound system during the video was so bad all i could hear was, "crack crack". anyway, i wont bore you with the names and all.

so, we played games. got wet, dirty, muddy, dizzy and the worst was sticky. they used detergent, soap, grass and starch. i had to lie on my stomach then on my back on the super disgusting mat with super thick coat of not only starch but sweat and footsteps.

ergh. eugh. wuek.

but hey, it was all for the name of fun.

i have to sleep now. tell u more about my group members and other people some other time.

drool oogle swoon gaga,

whoa,

Aisyah. *=)