Bored much.

I know right. It's not everyday that a rower would say that especially on a sunny Saturday morning.
At this point of time, I glanced outside the window behind me and looked at my watch. 1.20pm and it's cloudy. Right. I've been sitting on this cold hard KFC chair for close to 2 hours already. An empty aluminum casing where an egg tart once was being placed, piping hot and smelled so damn good now just staring right back at me tempting me to get another piece.
Once on the lips, forever on the hips. Is that how the saying goes? I'm fat. For an athlete. Well, that's what I think.
Im all alone. At KFC. On a Saturday.
I feel sad and needy.
I'm waiting for Nadzrie and Joanna to finish their YOG thingy at Kay Siang Rd. And I'm bored. So I spent my last 2 hours or so doing absolutely random things like searching for flights to go on a holiday at the end of the year, googling places to go, things to do, food to eat at (fill in the blanks) I don't know. Bandung with family? Bali with Sha? But sea games is in Jakarta! Omg. Back to my indon roots much?
I'm thinking about....nothing. Okay maybe, getting a car? Buying a condo? Getting married and naming my kids?
I don't know what to think about. I don't know how to deal with boredom and I have an iPad right in front of me.
Should I play my tiny tower? But ive already stocked all my stores. Hanging with friends? But I need the combined effort of Nadzrie and Aisyah to solve. Ninjump? It makes me curse and swear loudly and fidget alot so maybe not. Hmm.
I know, I'm thinking about food. About what to eat for lunch. I feel like having pasta. Creamy or tomato? Creamy is nice but fattening. I'm thinking about the dinner I'm going to have with my family later at Novena Square. Some Indonesian restaurant. Hmmmm.. My salivary glands suddenly became more productive.
I'm thinking about training. I have another training later at 4pm. Yes! Another! I had one this morning at 7am OH AND TALKI ABOUT TRAINING! my coach quit.
Yes.
Quit. Like gone. Like berambos kind of thing.
I KNOW RIGHT.
69 days to sea games if you're wondering.
He said it wasn't us, it's the management. I wish to not mention any further.
I'm just pissed and sad and confused and lost right now I don't know what to feel anymore.
I'm not gonna let this affect my performance.

I don't want to think about training. It tires my mind out.

I wanna think about drinks. I'm so thirsty. Sould I get a drink? What should I pamper myself with? Oooooh! Macs horlicks shake! No. Aisyah. You're an athlete. Eat healthy food. Please.

It's 1.36pm. Nadzrie hasn't contacted me yet which means they're not done yet. I'm sad. oh god im such a barnacle I should just attach myself to his back or something. His mum calls us horseshoe crabs. Cuz apparently these crabs can always be seen together CBS ause they're only seen out of water when they're mating. How sweet. Ahhh, nadzrie's mum. Now I'm thinking about her chicken cook orange or red or her rending or porridge. Omg. I'm hungry. No, wait, starving.

I wanna sleep. So tired omg. Maybe I'll walk around. Look for my brother's birthday present. He turned 30 two days ago. I know right. And he's not married yet. How scary! I thought I'll get married before I turn 25 but that's two years away and Nadzrie's haven't even been to NS. omg. By the time he ORDs I'll be 28. GASPS.
Don't think about this don't think aout this don't think about this.
I wanna marry him. I get mad at everyone and everything most of the time after training and I will perangai to him but he doesn't give up on pujuking me. I don't know how to translate those words in English. Okay I'll try. "I will attitude to him but he doesn't give up on soothing my heart? Hahahahahahah that sounds hilarious.

The KFC lady just removed my tray is she chasing me out cuz I've sat here for too long? My bum bum's getting pretty tired too. Maybe it's time for me to leave. Nice talking to you.

Bye!

And I'm gonna kill that Nadzrie Hyckell.