ketam and jagung

Your Hidden Talent

You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system. And while this may not seem big, it can be. It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes. You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

You Are 20% Abnormal

You are at low risk for being a psychopath. It is unlikely that you have no soul. You are at low risk for having a borderline personality. It is unlikely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

weehoo! im normal! yay!! and i have the natural talent of rocking the boat! ooh. maybe i was fated to row. haha. anyways. its thursday. and im having 2 free periods, wasting time taking all these random blogthings. how bored is aisyah? 99.128974% bored. the remaining 0.00 something percent is how not bored i feel. which means im really bored. but not so bored. cuz its not 100% bored. i still have some hope of unboredness left. yay!

omg. ketam ketttammm!!! oh. banyak banyak ketam!!!!

ahh yes. did u know i quit netball. like f-i-n-a-l-l-y. hah. yes. after 8 consecutive years of netballing, aisyah has finally quit netball. sigh. kinda sad la..to think about it. but i have to make a choice, anyway. netball or rowing. if i choose both, i might as well forget about a levels. sports in singapore can never be more important than education. discuss. wahh. so gp-deepy seyy.. haaahs. and my hidden talent is rocking the boat anyway, right? ahhhah.. i must nurture my talents while i still can and yes! aisyah can do it! *pats on my shoulder*

lalas.. lalalalas...

today i wanna go rowing. last week, we had a 2km time trial on water and it was my first ever time trial in my life on a single boat. the previous race was during the merlion at seletar last year. but i dint complete it cuz i capsized a few bloody seconds right after the race began. hah. i know. how pathetic was that? 87.1476472% pathetic!! then i cried (oh surprise, surprise) , cuz its quite embarrassing to capsize in a race and i felt really shitty mitty. but then,

failure is just a stepping stone to success.

if i fall, i've got 2 choices. to stay down or get up.

hah. so cheesy weezy!! ketam ketam nyer!!! blahh. ok. shut up, aisyah. sigh. yep. where was i? ahh yes. so for my first ever 2km time trial, i managed to clock a time of 9:41 mins which was way below my target for the year which is 8 mins flat. haha. but it was an achievement for me cuz i dint capsized and my target for that day was below 10mins. yeyyey. met my target!! *applause for aisyah* but there's still a lot to improve laa. rock my boat, aisyah. rock my boat.

im supposed to lose weight but ive been eating like crazy these days!!! old chang kee's irressistable epok epok everyday? im disappointed in myself. i cant stand it. if it wasnt for rowing, i would never go on a diet. but i wanna rock the boat, so i must lose weight. ergh. the rock my boat thing is getting in my nerves!! i think i need to take the abnormal test again. i find myself quite abnormal...sigh.

oh and its nice to talk normally now after whatever shit and hell that broke lose had happened. but things wont be the same again, i presume. but we'll try to make things better. if he cant, i will. oh, aisyah's gonna make the world a better place. spread the love, people. spread aisyah-ism. haah. sigh. the world is just like my skin colour- its not fair. ahhh!!! ketam jagung!!! ketam!! jagung!!

anyways, i hafta go for my next lesson now.

toodledoos. =)

success

ok. im in the school library again. alone, as usual. these days, i love to be alone. dont know why.

anyway, ive not been going rowing recently cuz im just plain lazy. like i told coach im going on tuesday but i didnt cuz i went to fetch my mum from the airport. yes. she just came back from haji and she bought quite a lot of stuff like dates, chocolate-coated dates, blahh.. alot la. its like food is all i think about. haha. and on wednesday, i was prepared to go training when it suddenly rained near my school. so i expected it to rain at pandan. i wanted to be sure it was raining at pandan so i took 78 to pandan from clementi. yep, it was drizzling slightly at pandan. so i dint alight and the bus took me all the way to jurong east. where i took the train home. gosh. aisyah is so retarded. its not a good feeling to skip training cuz the one who is at loss is me. i hate that guilty feeling. so on tuesday, i went running at woodlands stadium. i wanted to run yesterday but it began to rain heavily. spoiler.

well, yesterday was the first time since i broke up with kumar that i did not sms or call him. i thought well maybe he's moving on and so should i. i seriously refrained myself from touching my phone the whole day. i actually survived it! even tho i miss him like crazy laa. sigh. i miss crapping with him, telling him stupid jokes and receiving mean comments on how lame i could get, i miss being pinched..blahh...i wont get it started. anyway, i managed to complete a few maths homework and im proud of myself! these few days, ive NOT been sleeping in lectures or tutorials. yay for aisyah =)

so today, i promised myself i would go for training, rain or shine. before coach slits my neck. haah. and i need to lose 5kg by next week. ergh.

aisyah =)

monday.

sigh. today is a shitty mitty day to conlude to a really shitty mitty weekend i had. sigh.
stop sighing aisyah or u'll be called, sigh-idah aisyah. wth.
*slaps myself*
uhh. yes. its monday morning and im in the school library cuz i have 2 free periods. since i dropped lit, i have a lot of free periods. yayness. but today was bad. i have panda eyes this morning cuz i cried myself to sleep last night. someone made me cry real bad. yea. i look like a gigantic panda. =(
then i went to school with uber conspicuous eyebags that could store one big fat piece of kueh tat in them. hah. stupid analogy. dint know why im thinking about kueh tats. anyway, to top off my monday blues, i was caught for short skirt by the disciplne headmistress and she wanted me to buy a new skirt and show it to her during recess. but i couldn't find her and i dint buy any skirt. u're so gonna die, aisyah. ergh. now i look like a gigantic and retarded panda with a super long skirt. im so not gonna touch sugar cane today. it'll make me feel like a real panda. wait, pandas eat sugar canes dont they?
during the weekends, i went for rowing trainings in the mornings. on saturday we had an ergo timetrial which i did so damn bloody badly cuz the last time i touched an ergo machine was way before the sea games! i deproved by 26secs which is like utterly horrible and totally unacceptable for a national athlete! plus, i had a heavy breakfast and i actually throwed up right after the trial. i know, yucky mucky me!! but i felt really terrible and sick. eugh. imagine the pain i went tru. my coach dint give a damn about my vomit or how shitty mitty yucky mucky i felt. he was just diassapointed cuz i deproved by a lot. thanks, man. he's de best. oh and misery doesnt end there. immediately right after the trial we had to row for like 8km. as usual i was last to take off from the pontoon and last to come back. last to wash my boat and last to do my recovery stretchings. sigh. i feel so...ergh. nevermind.
and i went home feeling bloody exhausted. seriously, i was feeling like lousy mousy like that and all i could do was sleep. and i wanted to sleep for 15 minutes but no, i slept for like a few hours. then i forced myself to wake up to do some homework. which i succcessfully did. yay for aisyah. =)
on sunday, there was morning training again. we're supposed to complete a 14km programme. i was last (as usual) and coach followed me on his motor boat. he told me to like lift up my wrist at the catch position but the water was bad and there were crosswinds and my boat was unstable. he got so dissapointed at me he started shouting! i wanted to tell him its not easy to balance and lift up my wrist and i just learned to row a singles boat and it takes time for me to learn and im not really a fast learner and im feeling tired but i wanna do it but u have to give me some time and patience but no, ure shouting at me and i feel hurt when u say mean things and i know my ex rowng partner is doing well cuz she has been rowing singles before she rowed with me and she has no school to think about and im having my a levels this year and u dont understand shit and all u care about is rowing but i have a life and i want a life! but i didnt say anything. i almost cried when the blister on my right palm like totally burst. but i tried not to think about it. i was so angry i dint want to cry. i just wanted to row the 14km and go home.
went home felt shagged but i forced myself not to sleep. managed to finish a few assignments. and thats it, i guess. louasy mousy weekend aye?
mummy will be back tomorrow. yay.
and kumar told me that i have to move on and im trying to move on and it takes time to move on and its not that easy cuz...i still love him. ergh im so stupid.
oh well, hope the rest of my monday will be fine. im looking forward to pe. and dikir after school.
love, panda-isyah.

sadness.

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child. (nahhh...not me.)
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

sigh. been feeling really miserable these days. i need a kick on my ass..and please stop playing goodbye my lover by james blunt. its killing me. argh.