3 days before i leave
3 million things to do.
just wanted to share something i discovered today. i mean, its not a discovery, more of a reminder per se: Everyone has their own shit to settle. Noone's shit is bigger than another person's.
That's it.
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
Monday, September 16, 2013
SEPTEMBER
september has been full of crazy shit nonsense.
after i came back from korea, it felt that i was a changed person.
on water, i was definitely faster, or so thats what i think. i mean, i did an 8:03mins for the 2k in korea. thats madness! thats like 14s off my pb!
i havent gymmed much cuz coach has reduced my gym sessions. so i dont know if im stronger.
im definitely fitter now, i did a 10:16mins for my 2.4km the other day which shaved off 44s off my previous pb set in 2006.
but besides the fact that im all of the above, im kinda lost my track of time. i havent been very productive at work. and im leaving for sydney in like 5 days.
im excited, and i cant wait to get so much faster and fitter and stronger. but before i leave i have a whole lot of shit to settle at work, at home, all over singapore.
its crazy how many things im leaving behind.
CRAZY.
i just wish time will stop just for this week, just for me. and give me a chance to drop whatever im doing, and smell the roses. even if its for a day. or even an hour. i wish i can just not think of anything. not do anything.
ive been rowing/running/gymming every single day since i came back.
4:30am alarm. 7am training. 9am rush to work. and the late nights at work.
repeat.
im tired.
but i know that i have to do this.
"if you want something you never had, then you've got to do something you've never done" they say.
here's to 11 weeks of being a better person, InsyaAllah.
after i came back from korea, it felt that i was a changed person.
on water, i was definitely faster, or so thats what i think. i mean, i did an 8:03mins for the 2k in korea. thats madness! thats like 14s off my pb!
i havent gymmed much cuz coach has reduced my gym sessions. so i dont know if im stronger.
im definitely fitter now, i did a 10:16mins for my 2.4km the other day which shaved off 44s off my previous pb set in 2006.
but besides the fact that im all of the above, im kinda lost my track of time. i havent been very productive at work. and im leaving for sydney in like 5 days.
im excited, and i cant wait to get so much faster and fitter and stronger. but before i leave i have a whole lot of shit to settle at work, at home, all over singapore.
its crazy how many things im leaving behind.
CRAZY.
i just wish time will stop just for this week, just for me. and give me a chance to drop whatever im doing, and smell the roses. even if its for a day. or even an hour. i wish i can just not think of anything. not do anything.
ive been rowing/running/gymming every single day since i came back.
4:30am alarm. 7am training. 9am rush to work. and the late nights at work.
repeat.
im tired.
but i know that i have to do this.
"if you want something you never had, then you've got to do something you've never done" they say.
here's to 11 weeks of being a better person, InsyaAllah.
Wednesday, September 04, 2013
The World Champs.
So Korea was amazing.
It wasn't just about the racing, which in fact, went pretty well even if I came 17th in the world. Having a world ranking is probably something not any other being in this world can achieve. And I'm number 17. It's something to celebrate about and cherish. And the best part about racing has to be the fact that I love it. I love love love it. I love the adrenaline that rushes through my veins before the race. I love stepping on the scales knowing that I was naturally made for this event. I love sitting in the quiet room alone mentally preparing myself to get hurt and willing to die on the course. I love every little bit of warming up, the nerves, the racing heart rate as I get into the boat and gets pushed off the pontoon, the starts, the things I think about in the boat during the race. OMG. I love everything about racing and having done 4 races in Korea, I immediately know that this is what I want to do, as long as I am able to. InsyaAllah.
Korea was about new experiences. It's the first time I'm at the worlds with a coach, and a team manager. And the amazing part was that my coach only saw me row for a few days and I've never met my team manager before this. And they were amazing people that made my races even more memorable. The mental preps, the after race talks, the adventures we had. It felt as though I almost had Australian parents.
Korea was about meeting people who didn't care if you're a world champion, or last in your race. The people in Chungju, Korea were the friendliest, kind-hearted, and (again, i'm overusing this word but i cant think of any other ways to decribe) amazing. just downright humble, supportive, and they never, never fail to surprise me and make me smile no matter what the circumstance was.
Korea has definitely changed my life in one way or another. But the question is whether I'm willing to take that leap into the darkness to experience a whole new life in front of me, or stay put where I am and continue to live life as it was before Korea.
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And right now that I'm back in my office, sitting in front of my computer, doing things that i know wont benefit me in a few years time, waiting patiently for 21 Sept to come, I wonder why we put ourselves through these waitings. Waiting for this, waiting for that, waiting for signs, waiting for things to happen. Life is too short to be waiting around for things to happen! My work is becoming like a burden in my life. Well, I like it and all, and it definitely takes my time off thinking about stupid things and overthinking. And I like my colleagues, and the facilities here and I like the kids, they never fail to piss me off but sometimes they can be such sweethearts. But, I want to be more than just sitting here in front of my computer. I want more than this and I think it's time to move on in life.
Stop waiting. Like the malays will say, GO JER.
It wasn't just about the racing, which in fact, went pretty well even if I came 17th in the world. Having a world ranking is probably something not any other being in this world can achieve. And I'm number 17. It's something to celebrate about and cherish. And the best part about racing has to be the fact that I love it. I love love love it. I love the adrenaline that rushes through my veins before the race. I love stepping on the scales knowing that I was naturally made for this event. I love sitting in the quiet room alone mentally preparing myself to get hurt and willing to die on the course. I love every little bit of warming up, the nerves, the racing heart rate as I get into the boat and gets pushed off the pontoon, the starts, the things I think about in the boat during the race. OMG. I love everything about racing and having done 4 races in Korea, I immediately know that this is what I want to do, as long as I am able to. InsyaAllah.
Korea was about new experiences. It's the first time I'm at the worlds with a coach, and a team manager. And the amazing part was that my coach only saw me row for a few days and I've never met my team manager before this. And they were amazing people that made my races even more memorable. The mental preps, the after race talks, the adventures we had. It felt as though I almost had Australian parents.
Korea was about meeting people who didn't care if you're a world champion, or last in your race. The people in Chungju, Korea were the friendliest, kind-hearted, and (again, i'm overusing this word but i cant think of any other ways to decribe) amazing. just downright humble, supportive, and they never, never fail to surprise me and make me smile no matter what the circumstance was.
Korea has definitely changed my life in one way or another. But the question is whether I'm willing to take that leap into the darkness to experience a whole new life in front of me, or stay put where I am and continue to live life as it was before Korea.
---
And right now that I'm back in my office, sitting in front of my computer, doing things that i know wont benefit me in a few years time, waiting patiently for 21 Sept to come, I wonder why we put ourselves through these waitings. Waiting for this, waiting for that, waiting for signs, waiting for things to happen. Life is too short to be waiting around for things to happen! My work is becoming like a burden in my life. Well, I like it and all, and it definitely takes my time off thinking about stupid things and overthinking. And I like my colleagues, and the facilities here and I like the kids, they never fail to piss me off but sometimes they can be such sweethearts. But, I want to be more than just sitting here in front of my computer. I want more than this and I think it's time to move on in life.
Stop waiting. Like the malays will say, GO JER.
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