dilemma.

yo! whats up ya'll? miss u guys so much!! so whats been revolving around me? umm...lemme see. its already 6 weeks down jc life and i think it simply gets tougher day by day. i end school at 4.30pm everyday except for wednesdays but netball trainings are on mondays, wednesdays and fridays and they can end as late as 8pm. reaching home at 9pm is already like a normal routine for me. and there's so many assignments and revisions to do!! i know u'll go on saying stuffs like "its only the first 3 months" but i dont think its only the first 3 months. its THE first 3 months. oh whateva~ i think these first 3 months are important and i cant possibly slack cuz when i start slacking, i'll lose a lot! thats why i never did skip school to crash other jcs even tho im dying to do that. maybe i should. oh crap. there goes my fickle-mindedness. kill me. i dont deserve to walk on the face of the earth. haha. whateva, aisyah. im sorry guys. i'll stop complaining. i think im under stress. oh and i have pimples after like a month of pimple-less face. shit. ok, that'll be my last complain. i'll try.

what else is there to say? the rowing assosiation had the spore pools rowing champs last week and yep, there were rowers from msia and indonesia too. i miss those guys already. anyway, me and my partner, shuying, won silver for our doubles event. not bad aye? actually we were last then we caught up with the mlysians and some God-sent miracle made us beat the hong kongers by a split second. the race was no doubt super tiring, so tiring i felt like dying halfway! but winning silver was a great achievement for me, dont u think so? my first silver. heh. my singles event was terrible. it was my first singles event and i had no training whatsoever. ok, the water at pandan reservoir that day was awfully bad and mind you, i was on the single sculls boat. it was so difficult to get into the starting position because the wind and waves kept on pushing me away from the boat holder so its like even before the race began, i'm like so tired already. and since it was blardy well my first time, i took quite a long time getting into position and the other rowers had to wait for me. the president of the assosiation sort of chided me for not listening to him cuz i wasnt following his instructions and i was given a warning. i was so upset and disappointed. ahh...u know that shitty feeling and u know i hate to be reprimanded. and God-knows-why i started crying!! so i was crying like shit truout the whole race and of course bad start, bad race. i was so not prepared, i went so out of lane, i was so tired..and my mlysian competitior overtook me. blardy hell. i was so pissed off at myself.

so i dint manage to get into the final. oh it was heats btw. so there was the repercharge which deters 2 more rowers in the final 4. and my coach, being honest, told me, "u know u cant win this but aim for something else like staying in the lane." it dint sound nice or encouraging at all but i heeded his advice. and he was right, actually. so, i actually ended up last happy and smiling. ooh, optimistic me =)

so umm...now, i have to go through a really tough decision making point for the first time in my life in which it concerns my life and death. ok, enuf of drama-mama. i have to choose which one i should prioritize more: netball or rowing. if u were me, what would u do?

anyway, last thursday, hazi crashed ac. it was kinda nice having her company around. after school, for the first time in my ac life, i actually had free time. so we sort of hanged out at holland v. which i thot was a like happening place but there was nothing interesting there at all. so, yea.

and do any of u know the cheapest way to call philippines?? cuz i bought a $9 world idd card the other day to call him and i actually got through. yea, we talked and talked and i so dint realise that the time limit of 50mins was over and our conversation was cut off abruptly. blardy hell. btw, he was super sweet. hehe. so, if u guys know the cheapest way to call philippines, please tell me i beg you!!

i better do my assignments now lah.. see ya guys around yah?

take care.

in love with a pinoy,

ME *=)