ta-ta-ta-talking bout blah, blah, blah

nadzrie hyckell, if youre reading this, this is for you for "blah, blah, blahing" at my previous entry (which made me not want to display it publically bcuz after i re-read it again, i realised it was full of whining about the same old shit and recently i wonder if im REALLY THAT BORING! like recently, i was filling up some surveys about myself for yatay and like most of my answers were either about rowing, rowing or erm, rowing. omg save me.)

but then again, rowers are boring people. and so are teachers. and im both. woohoo! what a perfect KOMBO! (with a K)

shiats. just promise me you wont leave me cuz im boring, will you?

week 3 of school's gonna end and im still not resigning yet. i dont have a plan yet. NO GOOD.

the rowing asstn is at war currently. rowers VS clubs. ugh, one of the main reasons why it sucks to be an athlete here. the politics, my god. basically, all i can say is that. we're national athletes without any coach and its the SEA Games year. woohoo! yeah, let the world know aisyah, it will put u in a very good position to be kicked out of the asstn! booyah. but maybe, i wont be kicked out, instead get a pat on my back for being so full of integrity. right.

school has been pretty hectic, as usual, with the upper hand people assuming that we, the lower end teachers have all the time in the world for everything! one teacher who just started working as a full-time teacher after NIE said something really inspiring: "if i had known teaching was like this, i wouldnt have taken up the job." well said. inspiring to dodol heads like me who cant make simple decisions in life.

today i was talking to a particular student who got home suspension on the third week of school because of many days of truancy. and i asked her if she had any dreams or wishes of what she wants to be when she grows up and she insisted that she doesnt. i wish i could help these kids see that they still have a chance of changing their future. i wish i knew how to. :(

see nadz. no more whining!

and recently, i went to sungei buloh with the geog kids and we were walking tru the mangrove forest and i was enlightened. yes, by mangroves.

similar to how mangroves adapt to the changes in their environment in order to survive, i discovered that as much as we dont like changes, they are indeed inevitable, so its best if we just accept them and friggin move on.

HOW GEOG IS THAT OMG IT SCARED ME HOW PHILOSOPHICAL I CAN GET THINKING ABOUT MAGNROVES. but think about it, aisyah, you wreck. people change, things change whether you like it or not. so pretty well suck it up or continue sulking about it and die.

and nadz, for the record, as angsty as you are 99.9% of the time, as much as u hate surprises even if its from me, even though u talk abt yog and felix more than how much u talk abt how awesome i am on water, despite friends critisizing us because we're different, (i love being different btw), you're awesome and i love you.

best.

and i wrote big big on my bedroon wall:

WAKE UP EVERYDAY DETERMINED TO BE AMAZING.

insyaallah.

lets make things happen bebeh.