so ive decided to selit (selit was the word for the day on 31st dec 2010) this period of time right now, for some ME time. im giving myself about 20mins or so, put my iphone on silent, close all other windows and tabs on my lappy, shut the room door, stop the music playing from my itunes and sit on the edge of my bed (because 90% of my bed is occupied, you'll find out later on), fingers on the keyboard, ready to type away.
here goes.
2011 New Year Resolution.
what is it. how do i intend to acheive it. and how badly i want it.
1. i will be less fickle minded.
im not promising myself to not be fickle minded at all because i know its impossible. so bit by bit lamer lamer jadi bukit. i will make decisions fast and not annoy people with my indecisiveness. unless its syahir, i will be fickle minded just to annoy the shit out of him. thats what little brothers are for. if being asked "berms or shorts" i will answer either berms or shorts and not give a choice which is not provided like jeans or tights, worse still, ask a question back like "what colour is the berms? the shorts?". on a serious note, if being put in a situation to choose between "money or passion" or "teach or coach" or "quit or stay", i dont know how im gonna do it but like they always say, "follow what your heart says". i know its bullshit when u follow what your heart says because your heart cant speak, it only pumps blood and unless you have a stethoscope you cant really listen to it. in secondary school biology, we learnt that the heart makes a "lub dub" sound. if "lub dub" sounds like "yes, aisyah, you should quit" then quit, but if "lub dub" sounds more like "dont quit, dumbass" then do what your heart says. right? in fact, to make things clear, "following yr heart" is another way of saying, "im sorry i cant help you there just decide for yourself okay? youre all alone now. if you make the wrong choice you only have yourself to blame. HAH."
when decisions are made, i will not look back and regret. fight for what you stand for, even if it means fighting for it alone. awesome.
2. i will procrastinate lesser.
i will get things done asap so workload wont pile up like mt everest at the end of the day. i am going to acheive this by limiting myself to 15mins of fb a day, 30mins max if needed. when doing work, i will not distract myself with other things like planning for my next holiday or researching on where to eat later for dinner. all these can be done after work is completed. if work is not completed then too bad, suck thumb and cry. i will not let work pile up because it can be a bitch when deadlines are near. and i will not let work pile up because im a teacher and im supposed to set a good example. macam paham, i like.
3. i will be awesome at my job.
whichever job i decide on once i've succeeded in fulfilling my first resolution in making decisions, i will be awesome in it. i will like my job. i will love my job. i will not want to exchange it with anything else. insyaAllah.
4. i will train hard.
because i want to be in the SEA GAMES so badly i can die. i want to bring home another medal for singapore. i want to hear the Majulah Singapura play when the national flag is being risen. that means the medal has to be of a certain colour. i will train so hard i'll be so hard to beat. insyaAllah.
5. i will learn to love and trust.
i dont know how i'll do it, but im hoping i will be able to find out how to soon and im praying so hard that when i do, i wont get hurt again. (dengar tu)
6. i will spend less and save more.
i will not buy things i dont need like Havainas slippers. i will save because i want to fulfill my dreams of travelling the world before i get married. i will save up for an awesome trip to Europe or the States after i acheive resolution #04. i will save because i want to bring my mum to places she'll love to go to, like Masjid India, to buy tudung. im kidding. i'll bring her to Spain because when I was little, we almost went to Spain but we were short of cash.
7. i will make a difference.
i am a donor for the singapore heart society but ive never actually believed in helping others by providing money because you dont really know where the money goes to. i will find other means to help the less fortunate, insyaAllah. with that i will stop giving the excuse of "TOO BUSY" to make things happen. bullshit, we're never too busy, only lousy time management. (wah, in your face, aisyah. too much self help books, i see. good! splurging $90 on books at Prologue wasnt a bad idea after all!)
here goes.
2011 New Year Resolution.
what is it. how do i intend to acheive it. and how badly i want it.
1. i will be less fickle minded.
im not promising myself to not be fickle minded at all because i know its impossible. so bit by bit lamer lamer jadi bukit. i will make decisions fast and not annoy people with my indecisiveness. unless its syahir, i will be fickle minded just to annoy the shit out of him. thats what little brothers are for. if being asked "berms or shorts" i will answer either berms or shorts and not give a choice which is not provided like jeans or tights, worse still, ask a question back like "what colour is the berms? the shorts?". on a serious note, if being put in a situation to choose between "money or passion" or "teach or coach" or "quit or stay", i dont know how im gonna do it but like they always say, "follow what your heart says". i know its bullshit when u follow what your heart says because your heart cant speak, it only pumps blood and unless you have a stethoscope you cant really listen to it. in secondary school biology, we learnt that the heart makes a "lub dub" sound. if "lub dub" sounds like "yes, aisyah, you should quit" then quit, but if "lub dub" sounds more like "dont quit, dumbass" then do what your heart says. right? in fact, to make things clear, "following yr heart" is another way of saying, "im sorry i cant help you there just decide for yourself okay? youre all alone now. if you make the wrong choice you only have yourself to blame. HAH."
when decisions are made, i will not look back and regret. fight for what you stand for, even if it means fighting for it alone. awesome.
2. i will procrastinate lesser.
i will get things done asap so workload wont pile up like mt everest at the end of the day. i am going to acheive this by limiting myself to 15mins of fb a day, 30mins max if needed. when doing work, i will not distract myself with other things like planning for my next holiday or researching on where to eat later for dinner. all these can be done after work is completed. if work is not completed then too bad, suck thumb and cry. i will not let work pile up because it can be a bitch when deadlines are near. and i will not let work pile up because im a teacher and im supposed to set a good example. macam paham, i like.
3. i will be awesome at my job.
whichever job i decide on once i've succeeded in fulfilling my first resolution in making decisions, i will be awesome in it. i will like my job. i will love my job. i will not want to exchange it with anything else. insyaAllah.
4. i will train hard.
because i want to be in the SEA GAMES so badly i can die. i want to bring home another medal for singapore. i want to hear the Majulah Singapura play when the national flag is being risen. that means the medal has to be of a certain colour. i will train so hard i'll be so hard to beat. insyaAllah.
5. i will learn to love and trust.
i dont know how i'll do it, but im hoping i will be able to find out how to soon and im praying so hard that when i do, i wont get hurt again. (dengar tu)
6. i will spend less and save more.
i will not buy things i dont need like Havainas slippers. i will save because i want to fulfill my dreams of travelling the world before i get married. i will save up for an awesome trip to Europe or the States after i acheive resolution #04. i will save because i want to bring my mum to places she'll love to go to, like Masjid India, to buy tudung. im kidding. i'll bring her to Spain because when I was little, we almost went to Spain but we were short of cash.
7. i will make a difference.
i am a donor for the singapore heart society but ive never actually believed in helping others by providing money because you dont really know where the money goes to. i will find other means to help the less fortunate, insyaAllah. with that i will stop giving the excuse of "TOO BUSY" to make things happen. bullshit, we're never too busy, only lousy time management. (wah, in your face, aisyah. too much self help books, i see. good! splurging $90 on books at Prologue wasnt a bad idea after all!)
bual sorang siak.
8. i will friggin clean up my room.
because it looks like this now:
8. i will friggin clean up my room.
because it looks like this now:
its not like im proud of it but really. my bed is just a oh so tempting place to put things on eventually it becomes a storage area! and plus the gazillions of bantals i have on my bed which i dont even use when i sleep omg God save me and my bed!
(did my saham just fell by 60% by posting that photo? hahahaha!) at least im honest! thus resolution #09 is...
9. i will be honest.
no more lying to my clients about not being able to make it for training just cuz im friggin lazy, unless of cuz im really shagged and i deserve a break. but laziness doesnt apply. no more lying to my mum about where i go and who i go out with because i have REALLY BAD MEMORY and lying requires you to remember stuff you lie about. and lying is childish anyway. honesty is the best policy, yo. lesser dosa also. i want to go to Heaven.
10. i will be closer to God.
like what i wrote in FB, because with Him, i know that whatever obstacles i face, no matter how hard, will be possible. insyaAllah. :)
Amin.
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