shaggedelic

okay fast game.

HAHA. "fast game" is funny shit.

i was sick since 3 weeks ago. still is. ERGH. my immune system is chinese, so they're on a holiday ah. dammit.

first the sore throat, then the cough, the phlegms, inflammation of the throat, yada yada.

i dint see any doctor the first week cuz i was busy. no, i was broke. no wait let me think of an excuse. oh bother! i dint give a damn, okay. im a stubborn ass. like whats new. i thought my immune system could handle it, apparently it couldnt. so it got worse and the coughs started to annoy the shit out of me. so yes, i went to see the doctor on the second week. and this is doctor number one. who prescribed me with ero tabs as antibiotics and cough syrup. later, i had major nausea i vomitted twice. bloody hell. so i went to doctor number two at another clinic. he prescribed me with nausea pills and gastric pills. the vomitting and nausea got worse i almost vomitted on the train on that monday on the way to school i had to turn back home then i slept for like 18 hours. hello? BEAT THAT! it so deserves a place in the record book of impossible feats aisyah achieved! 18 hours seh! then when i woke up i went to the same clinic but doctor number three was on consultation and told me that the ero tabs doctor number one prescribed is the reason behind the nausea so he prescribed me with diff antibiotics.

finally, thank you very much. a doctor that does his job well done, excellent. so no more coughs, okay lesser coughs now, but after the day i slept for 18hours, i couldnt sleep! so i slept at 5am that night/morning/whatever and now my eye bags can store my laptop! SHIT. and all of a sudden after months the sinus left for athey're long break, they're back seh. sinus sensitivitis sucks.

alliteration ke perr.

so because of aisyah and her bermacam macam sickness, i dint get to attend ama's farewell party okay. but i went for the mini movie screening at her house yest just to see her b4 she leaves for aust but i forgot to bring it. okay i got until saturday. and that was my 6th time watching mean girls. hmm.

okay then hor, im so pemalas right u know that and everyone knows that i am always full of excuses so thats why ive been gaining weight so i thought, i need a source of motivation.

WHAT KEEPS ME GOING?

im supposed to go beijing for the olympic qualifiers but i told the association im not prepared for it so i think i'll give it a miss. big leap but oh well. gotta be honest with urself. im so fat i dont deserve to be called an athlete, let alone a rower! so one fine day i cannot tahan looking at the babbats protruding here there and everywhere i put on my running shoes and just run. just run. and omg, its been yeaaars since i ran.

then it hit me, hard ; i've lost it.

hello world. ive lost it! the rythm, the momentum, the feel. OH MY GOD. i thought how can a runaholic lose the feeling of running? i deserve to be burnt alive! (not that im not hangus already). but omg. it was one of the worst feelings in the world! okay well, not really but okay it was a bad feeling. it was humiliating to myself. it spells disaster. the feeling of babbats wobbling like koniyaku jelly under my tee when i run, the gasping for air just after 15mins of run, the pant, the wobbly knees and ankles. the everything lah! everything is so out of shape it looks wrong it feels bad. the muslces are disintergrating. i know it doesnt disintegrate, its a figure of speech. thank god i dint had any stitches, if not i would have screamed!

i lost it, havent i?

so now i'll jump at any opportunity whenever possible to provide myself with sufficient motivation to keep me going. like the national vertical marathon which i thought i should give it a try this year and im so gonna sign up for it.

and theres X-Physique where i intend to conquer my fear of cycling and lear how to swim.

and theres the adidas futsal tournament and netball and touch rugby ifg.

anything that makes me sweat, bebeh, give it to me!

so aisyah, im sorry but u have no more excuses to give. u must start training, go run whenever possible, go row, go climb, go swim, go dance and skip and hop and twist and turn!!

dah giler?

memang giler. aper nak buat?

"ini ader time

itu ader time

tapi blajar takder time"

have u ever wonderedhow is it possible that most moms say the same thing? hmm.

okay kan aisyah dah ngantuk.

a bit more next time then.

happy chinese new year! so much for me being 25% chinese.

gong xi gong xi.

dah, BYE.