AISYAH IS SO FREAKING BORED NAK MAMPOS TO THE MAX OF THE ULTIMATE MAX TIMES INFINITY AND BEYOND CAN DIE WHAT SHIT SUPER LIKE HELL FISH HEAD CURRY CHICKEN NUGGET!
omg.
its a freaking saturday night and im at home sitting on my couch doing absolutely totally NOTHING. like super- NOTHING. like NOTHING as in NOTHING to do NOTHING to look forward to. NOTHING. wahhh. this is madness. crazy. ARGH.
i cant go out cuz im broke. im broke cuz im not even working. im not working cuz i have to row everyday. i try not to complain cuz its what i love to do and i wont complain cuz when i cant row, i complain that i cant row. so now that i can row all i want, i shouldnt complain. right? so just shut up and row.
omg.
its a freaking saturday night and im at home sitting on my couch doing absolutely totally NOTHING. like super- NOTHING. like NOTHING as in NOTHING to do NOTHING to look forward to. NOTHING. wahhh. this is madness. crazy. ARGH.
i cant go out cuz im broke. im broke cuz im not even working. im not working cuz i have to row everyday. i try not to complain cuz its what i love to do and i wont complain cuz when i cant row, i complain that i cant row. so now that i can row all i want, i shouldnt complain. right? so just shut up and row.
...
okay, im cool.
i lost 4kg in 5 days. which is remarkable. and i deserve a celebration, a pamper myself day. so i bought weetbix. hahaha. this is so freaking pathetic.
after rowing on thursday coach made me and mimi run around the reservoir. it was about 10am and the reservoir has no freaking shade and it was so hot nak mampos we we practically dragging our feet on the hard burning gravel for 45mins. it was so hot i could feel the heat radiating through the soles of my shoes okay.
it was so hot i turned blacker. HOHO.
coach is getting a little bit annoying. okay these days. seriously. okay, ALOT annoying. he's getting so anal about this losing weight shit. i dont like it.
oh that day he loosened one of the screws on my boat cuz i complained that it was making freaking irritating creaking noises. so when i was rowing the screw kinda unscrewed itself and dropped into the water. i almost capsized, please. and he blamed me for it. wah thanks. i was so pissed that day i just walked off when he was talking to me. sorreh. dont mess wimme when im pissed. NEVER.
okay, im cool.
i lost 4kg in 5 days. which is remarkable. and i deserve a celebration, a pamper myself day. so i bought weetbix. hahaha. this is so freaking pathetic.
after rowing on thursday coach made me and mimi run around the reservoir. it was about 10am and the reservoir has no freaking shade and it was so hot nak mampos we we practically dragging our feet on the hard burning gravel for 45mins. it was so hot i could feel the heat radiating through the soles of my shoes okay.
it was so hot i turned blacker. HOHO.
coach is getting a little bit annoying. okay these days. seriously. okay, ALOT annoying. he's getting so anal about this losing weight shit. i dont like it.
oh that day he loosened one of the screws on my boat cuz i complained that it was making freaking irritating creaking noises. so when i was rowing the screw kinda unscrewed itself and dropped into the water. i almost capsized, please. and he blamed me for it. wah thanks. i was so pissed that day i just walked off when he was talking to me. sorreh. dont mess wimme when im pissed. NEVER.
today i cried in the shower after training. i was thinking to myself, is all this dieting, straving, sacrifices for rowing all worth it? i mean seriously to think about it, i've made so many sacrifices for this. i dont work, im not earning, the rowing association isnt helping me even one bit financially, going to the training centre every freaking day isnt cheap, isnt near, i dont spend as much time with my friends and family cuz usually after training i'll be dead tired i have no mood to go out and hello, have i mentioned im penniless? essential evening runs, liquid diets, not eating solid food for a few days, i see coach face more often then i see my mum's, no money, no life. IS IT ALL WORTH IT.
passion, i always tell them.
but how far can i go? how far can it bring me?
passion, i always tell them.
but how far can i go? how far can it bring me?
emo or what.
i was feeling so down lah. and coach HAD TO come and tell me that i need to increase my number of training sessions, starting with 3 sessions on sat.
BEST.
grar. lets not talk about it.
i dont like to think. im a lazy ass.
yesterday i went to watch the match btw woodlands wellington and balestier khalsa at jalan besar stadium. it was exciting. i love the atmosphere. but i wasnt really into sleague so yea just sat there and watch. nyaha.
and i seriously dont get the cheerleaders. i cant hear a word they're cheering. and oh so surprisingly they're mostly if not all, malays.
i was sitting on the third floor everyone on the pitch looked the same. and there were no replays. i dont like. i like close ups on the players.
and theres this group of mats and minahs who came and sat near me.
i so so so dont get the striped black and red or black and white and black and purple (seriously?) shirts. its hideous. mengarut. ugly. stupid.
then they were shouting at the players, the referee, making stupid comments, jeering, walking around aimlessly, throwing paper balls at each other. the girls were stuffing wet tissues in their friend's mouths. and enjoying it when their friends shrieked in disgust. they were happily throwing things around, throwing tissue papers onto the floor below. i was like HELLO are u here to watch the match or treat this place like your home cuz if ure not watching, do u mind LEAVING cuz u guys are annoying nak mampos, getting on my nerves, blocking my view, a major eyesore. a disgrace to the community. need i say more?
i was so annoyed ah. they just make my hair stand. the way they speak, the way they dress, they way they behave, the impression of the malays they leave behind.
and they still have the face to jeer at the soccer players. give them a mirror please. they need some help to reflect on their lives. major help.
when tetiey came i immediately left that area.
there was the girls soccer clinic right after the match. it was a huge turnout but so little time. but i had fun. ended around 10 plus, took the train home all sweaty and tired. reached home at 12. and went rowing the next morning. and played soccer in the evening.
i was feeling so down lah. and coach HAD TO come and tell me that i need to increase my number of training sessions, starting with 3 sessions on sat.
BEST.
grar. lets not talk about it.
i dont like to think. im a lazy ass.
yesterday i went to watch the match btw woodlands wellington and balestier khalsa at jalan besar stadium. it was exciting. i love the atmosphere. but i wasnt really into sleague so yea just sat there and watch. nyaha.
and i seriously dont get the cheerleaders. i cant hear a word they're cheering. and oh so surprisingly they're mostly if not all, malays.
i was sitting on the third floor everyone on the pitch looked the same. and there were no replays. i dont like. i like close ups on the players.
and theres this group of mats and minahs who came and sat near me.
i so so so dont get the striped black and red or black and white and black and purple (seriously?) shirts. its hideous. mengarut. ugly. stupid.
then they were shouting at the players, the referee, making stupid comments, jeering, walking around aimlessly, throwing paper balls at each other. the girls were stuffing wet tissues in their friend's mouths. and enjoying it when their friends shrieked in disgust. they were happily throwing things around, throwing tissue papers onto the floor below. i was like HELLO are u here to watch the match or treat this place like your home cuz if ure not watching, do u mind LEAVING cuz u guys are annoying nak mampos, getting on my nerves, blocking my view, a major eyesore. a disgrace to the community. need i say more?
i was so annoyed ah. they just make my hair stand. the way they speak, the way they dress, they way they behave, the impression of the malays they leave behind.
and they still have the face to jeer at the soccer players. give them a mirror please. they need some help to reflect on their lives. major help.
when tetiey came i immediately left that area.
there was the girls soccer clinic right after the match. it was a huge turnout but so little time. but i had fun. ended around 10 plus, took the train home all sweaty and tired. reached home at 12. and went rowing the next morning. and played soccer in the evening.
lala.
im tired. its eleven and guess what i have tmr morning?
come on, give it a guess.
this is so exciting. i bet u cant figure it out.
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