weakling.

i swear there is something going on with my body right now. last week, i had a really, really bad shoulder/neck/back pain. it got so bad i woke up one day not being able to turn my neck at all. and then i felt the pain on my lower back. i thought well maybe its just the menses coming and i was right it did come and i had the worst of the worst cramps yesterday which lasted from morning all the way till i reached home at night. it was so painful i was crying in the toilet all by myself like a loser. i was a complete wreck. and then today, i woke up feeling there was something wrong. everytime i faced down, it felt like my brain's gonna explode. the worst when i had to shit. like everytime i put in force to shit, i feel as though someone's hitting the right side of my head. when i walked out, i felt as though i was gonna pass out. so i headed back home and slept. i woke up again feeling so much better, alhamdullilah. and now im at work. but i really, really, oh my god, really dont know what is wrong with me. even as we speak now my mind feels as though thers clouds floating around. it feels like im in a pool or something. maybe my mind's taking a break but my body's refusing to give in. and i am hungry but when i look at food, i dont have any appetite to eat. i hope i get better. i hate this feeling. :(